having a bad day....

[xkissyx]

hi ladies just felt i needed to let out my feelings somewhere ... i feel very down today .. i should be in a good mood as HSG is booked for the morning but for some reason i just don't feel like i'm progressing anywhere .... i just want a baby so bad and feel like i'll never get there ... even after the weight loss i still aint having AF ... i feel like such a failure as a women as not only can i not get pregnant but i can't even have a monthly menses.

with feeling so down i'm finding it even harder to stick to the diet

 

[pink32]

Hi Kissy,
sorry ur feeling so down babe...it's so hard being a woman sometimes....i know what u mean about thinking it's never going to happen...this TTC gets us so down and becomes extremely hard to stay positive.

im hoping that god blesses us all with our miracles soon xoxo sending u lots of hugs

 

[MrsJA]

Yeah I hear you lady... cycle day 41 for me today, AF still nowhere to be seen. All very standard!

I know what you mean about feeling like it's never going to happen.. you've just gotta hope, and have faith that it will.

Hang in there, and good luck with your HSG

 

[MariaF]

Kissy - so sorry you are feeling down

I feel EXACTLY the same today...don't even know why. Im on my 4th day of Clomid - may be it's the hormones affecting my moods

I just have this feeling that I KNOW we will never be able to have a baby...I also don't ovulate and have severe PCOS. And time just seems to drag. So many of my friends went on to fall pg and even have a baby since we started trying - yet for us there's been no progress. For most of my friends falling pregnant was as easy as 123.

I had a strop at hubby last night and am feeling very low today So I totally sympathise with you, hun

Im trying my best to stay positive, but on days like today I find it more and more difficult....

 

[ANGEL223]

Youre in good company! I think everyone on here as felt as you do from time to time! What option do we have but to pick ourselves up and carry on - its hard but you just have to believe that one day it will all be worth it!

Its great that we can all share and vent on this forum and i hope that by doing so you are able to regain your PMA!

Wishing you all the luck in the world xoxo

 

[xkissyx]

i'm pretty much the same ... i usually feel very possitive and that we'll get there but with every birth of my friends of family i seem to be knocked back down ... recently a friend of mine had a little boy and she has pcos and was only trying 6 months ...

i havn't a clue to the extent of my pcos i just know at the moment i have it kinda worried tho as my FS has gave me an appointment before we agreed ... she said she'd only give me an appoinment once she had all results however she only had blood results and US and sent the appoinment ... maybe i'm just getting myself all worked up

i do wonder tho my i'm so different to my friends that have pcos ... they have AF i don't xx

 

[MariaF]

i'm pretty much the same ... i usually feel very possitive and that we'll get there but with every birth of my friends of family i seem to be knocked back down ... recently a friend of mine had a little boy and she has pcos and was only trying 6 months ...

i havn't a clue to the extent of my pcos i just know at the moment i have it kinda worried tho as my FS has gave me an appointment before we agreed ... she said she'd only give me an appoinment once she had all results however she only had blood results and US and sent the appoinment ... maybe i'm just getting myself all worked up

i do wonder tho my i'm so different to my friends that have pcos ... they have AF i don't xx

Four of my friends have PCOS. They all have kids and all had periods. The odd thing is that three of them have a lot more symptoms - like facial hair, acne, weight around the tummy area...I only have acne - nothing else! But they have regular af and I don't!
It's not fair

 

[xkissyx]

sure isn't i just sometimes think i should have pushed the doctors more when i was younger ..

i have most the symptoms ... weight around the tummy, facial hair, acne, none existant periods, skin tags and dark patches on skin

i think the worst thing about pcos is how it messes up periods and also how hard it makes it to loose weight xx

 

[mercyme]

Kissy, you'll get a lot of empathy here -- I've been feeling just as you do, although I don't have pcos. Sometimes I just know we'll never have a baby & all this work & money is for nothing. The process is so, so hard, hard on our emotions, hard on our bodies. And the whole thing is so asymmetrical -- even if it's male factor, the woman still has to endure all the tests & procedures.
I hope the HSG yields good information, and that the dr is able to help you quickly.