pcsoph2890
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Yesterday, went to the loo and saw that AF was on her way. Gutted not because she is arriving but she is early again. (didn't have sex during the fetile period, so 100% sure i wasn't)
Last month she arrived 3 days early, so going from my usual 26-28 cycle to 23-25 day. Not necessarily worried about that then.
But when i saw blood when i wiped yesterday i was worried that she was another 3 days early.
My mum has an underactive thyriod which she takes medication for.
I have recently started the journey into getting tests etc. Had my day 1-5 blood and day 19 bloods just done. Vaginal swabs too.
Hubby going for his drs appt Friday to discuss him going to give a sample too.
It's just dawned on me that there is a possibilty that i may never get pregnant. I'm 37 and hubby 32. Finally found the man i want to have children with and have been so careful throughout my life not to get pregnant - now when i try it's hard!
Now loads of things going through my mind and all the what ifs.
What if i am infertile
what if hubby is
What if there is no reason
What if we do get pregnant and something is wrong
How will i cope if i can;t have kids naturally
How will hubby cope?
I know i should be happy that we are "healthy" there are so many people who are ill, and other problems in life etc
What in a way makes it easier at the mo is that i have moved depts and in a dept of 10, two couple had IVF sucessfully (they were older than me) and a man who had to do IUI, so quite supportive in that sense, and they know exactly what i'm going through and happy to discuss it. If i ask them questions etc.
Oh well as hubby said there is nothing we can do until the tests come back and stressing about it won;t help. We are going on holiday in the next couple of months, so think a bit of a holiday away from it all will do us wonders!
xxx
Last month she arrived 3 days early, so going from my usual 26-28 cycle to 23-25 day. Not necessarily worried about that then.
But when i saw blood when i wiped yesterday i was worried that she was another 3 days early.
My mum has an underactive thyriod which she takes medication for.
I have recently started the journey into getting tests etc. Had my day 1-5 blood and day 19 bloods just done. Vaginal swabs too.
Hubby going for his drs appt Friday to discuss him going to give a sample too.
It's just dawned on me that there is a possibilty that i may never get pregnant. I'm 37 and hubby 32. Finally found the man i want to have children with and have been so careful throughout my life not to get pregnant - now when i try it's hard!
Now loads of things going through my mind and all the what ifs.
What if i am infertile
what if hubby is
What if there is no reason
What if we do get pregnant and something is wrong
How will i cope if i can;t have kids naturally
How will hubby cope?
I know i should be happy that we are "healthy" there are so many people who are ill, and other problems in life etc
What in a way makes it easier at the mo is that i have moved depts and in a dept of 10, two couple had IVF sucessfully (they were older than me) and a man who had to do IUI, so quite supportive in that sense, and they know exactly what i'm going through and happy to discuss it. If i ask them questions etc.
Oh well as hubby said there is nothing we can do until the tests come back and stressing about it won;t help. We are going on holiday in the next couple of months, so think a bit of a holiday away from it all will do us wonders!
xxx
