angelkatelyn
2 girls,1 boy & an angel
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hey ladies, bit of a pointless thread just have no1 else to talk to so u get it all, apologies.
firstly like most of u know hubby decided 7 days before my due date he wants a divorce so got solicitor on 25th november, he's still living here atm, were civil so kids dont feel uncomfortable or see it all and he's changed his shifts to 9-9 just to be out of house, after which he goes to pub.
the whole point of our row and splitting up was because i asked him to stop walking out in a strop and going to his uncles as i didnt want to go into labour with 2 young children scared and alone. but he obviously has other plans, i told him if he couldnt be here i wanted to be in labour and have baby at hosp on my own if he couldnt support me before hand and he's adamant he's going to be at the birth. i have GBS so need to go into hosp as soon as i go into labour to get anti's so no chance of homebirth anyway.
my dad said call him wen i go into labour so he can stay with kids but his alcoholic gf wont let him answer the fone to me so i have to wait hours for a reply and a bullshit excuse as to why he didnt call back or answer, and they'v been the same excuses for years.
Basically my whole point after background information is im petrified of going into labour alone, especially during the day with the girls to run around after, my dad and ex letting me down and having baby at home which will give the kids nightmares as there only 2 and 3, and how the hell im guna cope with 3 small kids on my own.
Also ex said as he's on a trial period at work he can come back wen im in labour but cant take a couple of days off to sit with kids or he'll lose his job, dad wont be 'allowed' too and i dont talk to my mum we dont even have each others numbers so ill be having to discharge myself to look after my girls wen i should be recovering knowing there being looked after at home,
im not looking forward to labour now he's completely fucked that up and im scared shitless of doing labour and parenting alone but i no if he's in room with me it'll be sarcastic nasty comments and no support
sorry its so long, just needed to get that out before i explode, god dam hormones dont help x
firstly like most of u know hubby decided 7 days before my due date he wants a divorce so got solicitor on 25th november, he's still living here atm, were civil so kids dont feel uncomfortable or see it all and he's changed his shifts to 9-9 just to be out of house, after which he goes to pub.
the whole point of our row and splitting up was because i asked him to stop walking out in a strop and going to his uncles as i didnt want to go into labour with 2 young children scared and alone. but he obviously has other plans, i told him if he couldnt be here i wanted to be in labour and have baby at hosp on my own if he couldnt support me before hand and he's adamant he's going to be at the birth. i have GBS so need to go into hosp as soon as i go into labour to get anti's so no chance of homebirth anyway.
my dad said call him wen i go into labour so he can stay with kids but his alcoholic gf wont let him answer the fone to me so i have to wait hours for a reply and a bullshit excuse as to why he didnt call back or answer, and they'v been the same excuses for years.
Basically my whole point after background information is im petrified of going into labour alone, especially during the day with the girls to run around after, my dad and ex letting me down and having baby at home which will give the kids nightmares as there only 2 and 3, and how the hell im guna cope with 3 small kids on my own.
Also ex said as he's on a trial period at work he can come back wen im in labour but cant take a couple of days off to sit with kids or he'll lose his job, dad wont be 'allowed' too and i dont talk to my mum we dont even have each others numbers so ill be having to discharge myself to look after my girls wen i should be recovering knowing there being looked after at home,
im not looking forward to labour now he's completely fucked that up and im scared shitless of doing labour and parenting alone but i no if he's in room with me it'll be sarcastic nasty comments and no support
sorry its so long, just needed to get that out before i explode, god dam hormones dont help x
*hugs* x x
