having a down day :(

[whatwillbe]

Ok, so i havnt seen fob since i was about 4 weeis pregnant, he'd always told me he wanted me to have his baby when we were together and even seemed happy when he found out, but then i tagged him in a pic of me and him on fb and his ex made a comment about "thats my baby father, go an find your own man", wich le me to believe something was still going on with them. I confronted him and he said there wasnt, and that im a mad woman and that hes not with anyone now, so basically i was dumped, the last time we was togethef was lovely, we (tmi sorry) dtd an he told me he loved me, then this happens !

Anyway everytime i tried to call him from then on he was like "stop calling me" ! Or would just ignore my calls, so i tried to get on with my life but it was so hard as i still loved an missed him like crazy about 4 weeks ao i text him to say im coming down yours because i need to know the truth ( i believed he was back with his ex) but he was denying it, i got to his an he starts shouting at me im a mad women and grabbing me by the arm and trying to pull me off his property, then low and behold... his ex comes to the door and tells him to get me away from her "yard" ... he then calls the police on me so i slapped him a few times, i got arrested and told not to contact him anymore as there are such things as stalking laws ! , id sent him quite a few texts, mainly because he was ignoring me and at the time didnt feel like i could help myself.

Anyway i havnt contacted him again up untill yesterday, i know i shouldnt have but i need to know why he has treated me basically like a dog, did i ever mean anything to him in the first place ? Im having his baby and he treats me like i dont exist, it hurts like hell anyway i told him im having a little girl and its like im talking to a stranger who has nothing to do with this baby, he just tells me to "keep calm" and "see ya" , i wish i never contacted him, and i just keep crying, i feel so worthless and not good enough for anyone, and i wish i could just forget about him (

So sorry for the essay, i just needed to get it off my chest, theres only so many times i can go on about it to my friends x

 

[whatwillbe]

Gonna have to re-do my make up now, sorry im just having one of those feel sorry for myself days x

 

[KayBea]

bloody men xxxx

 

[KayBea]

honestly just stay away from him, dont contact him, waste of space!!
call CSA to get him to pay up!!

 

[emeraldbaby]

As hard as it is, stop yourself from contacting him in any way... it has served only to hurt you (and get you arrested), not him. You are only prolonging inevitable disappointment wishing that he was a better man... it won't happen. Concentrate on building a great life for you and baby, show the world what a awesome mum you are!.
I am pregnant to my husband, we are separated and I go through a lot of emotions, so I can definitely sympathise. I keep focusing on my Childs wellbeing and remind myself sentimentality will do nothing for me or my future. I hope we both find peace.... all the best to you and your precious baby x

 

[whatwillbe]

Thanks ladies, most days im ok and try and just think about me and my kids and baby but it gets so lonely im going to try my hardest not to contact him now, your right in every time i do i just hurt myself, i suppose its just going to take time to get over him, good luck to you both too xx

 

[teal]

Sending you massive hugs he doesn't deserve you.

I've not seen FOB since before I found out I was pregnant - I told him over the phone and as he was horrible/threatening about it I didn't see him in person. It does get easier xx

 

[AnnabelsMummy]

deffinatly don't contact him, every time you do it, just think, "no this time i'll keep my dignity!"

every time you contact him you get rejected and hurt, think, what good is really coming from it. It sounds like you're looking for some kind of closure - as horrid as it is, you won't get it from him, the timr you'll get it, is when he's not affecting you like this.

 

[whatwillbe]

Sorry you've been treated so horribly too teal, its amazing how you think you know someone and then you see the real person and they are NOT nice at all , i feel like my fib is a complete stranger to me now, and your right hun, its already gotten easier, just waiting fir that day when he doesnt even enter my mind x

 

[whatwillbe]

Annabellsmummy, i think youve hit the nail on the head, i needed/and still want closure, i could of accepted he didnt want to be with me abd was back with his ex, its just the horrible way hes done it, not tried to explain why and has shown no empathy towards me, we were together nearly every day for near enough a year, and its hard to get my head round the fact he spent so much time with me, yet i never meant a thing to him, hopefully i'll just stop caring about him soon x