i have had the worse day today and i just can't cope anymore. My baby screams blue murder when i leave the room to do anything, he wouldn't eat any of his lunch he just sat in his high chair and screamed. i was humiliated at the bank having to explain that i literally have no income at the minute apart from £20 a week child benefit and then when i phoned my husband's new phone number - which is his girlfriend's landline - in tears begging him to help me because i actually can't cope she just answers the phone and doesn't speak to me. Then to make it even worse i get a horrible email from my husband telling me that he's got a job now so i'll get my money. i don't want any money i just want a break. i love my son so much but i've had two weeks for this rubbish on top of no sleep as i just put my baby in his cot and he's really unsettled at nights and my husband thinks it's ok for me to carry on like this while he pi**es off with her doing whatever he wants. he was the one who wanted the baby so why am i the one left to deal with everything. i'm actually dreading hearing him wake up from his nap because i can't stand the thought of any more screaming today 
