Having a hard time thinking about ttc again.

[jkburns]

I hate having to go through ttc again. I really hate having to go back to wtt. My doctor thinks I had a partial molar pregnancy (i find out for sure Tuesday), which means I may have to wait for up to a year before ttc again. I tried to get myself a little more cheerful by looking at non maternity clothes that I will be able to wear, but then it all clicked in that I wont have a belly this summer and I wont need the newborn diapers that sit in my closet still. I don't need to save baby clothes anymore, because it will be at least 2 years before I have another baby. I know I'm not the only going through this and I hope we all can stay sane until we have a healthy baby, but it seriously sucks. Sorry for the rant.

 

[Garnet]

It is okay to feel that way. Mine made it 17.5 weeks and we had a D&E. My heart is not into trying agian but I kinda have to because of my age.. Hoping for the best next time..

 

[Andypanda6570]

I am so sorry for your losses, you have been through a lot.
I know how bad you must feel but if it was partial molar then it is best you wait to insure your health, a year goes by so fast, believe me.
I lost my Ava at 20 weeks and her 1 year mark is coming up on March 3rd I can't believe it has been 1 year since I gave birth to this miracle, my daughter. I will be 42 in June and Ava was a complete surprise for us, i was 40 when i found out I was pregnant. I already had 3 boys 20,17 and 11 and we never thought we would ever have another one let alone a little girl Time has healed me some, but my heart is just broken over this.
Give your body some time and just know things will get better and before you know it you will be pregnant again.. I wish you all the best XOOXOX

 

[schloop]

Waiting sucks. I was in the same boat as you (but for different medical reasons) - It's been one year as of this month and we are still not cleared to try. We have pretty much lived from dr. appt to dr. appt (but now we only have 2.5 months left to go!)

What has been working for us to help pass the time: planning and going on a vacation, working on being healthy, focusing more on work and our together time, spending a little more time on our hobbies. For me, waiting this year has been really helpful in the healing process. I know lots of people are comfortable to start trying right away, but for me, it has been really helpful to be forced to process and heal from what has happened.

You will make it through, but yes, thinking about when you started this journey to when you may actually have a baby is a very scary amount of time.

Good luck