Mommy's Angel
Mommy to Angelboy 10/22/9
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I just received a phone call from my mom who told me a relative is 5 months pregnant. She's in her late teens and extremely immature. I'm extremely upset because we've been trying for 9 years.....before losing our son preterm, she made some remarks about not ever wanting to lose her figure.
5 months ago she was put in the hospital to come off drugs and alcohol while trying to commit suicide. Now we're finding out she's pregnant.
I'm trying to keep her and especially the baby in prayer but I feel like crap. My baby is buried and we've tried to do everything the right way for 9 years. Not that I'm perfect by any means.....but I'm so angry that she willingly put her baby at risk for birth defects or even drug addiction.
I mean, is God mad at me??
Even right now, I feel guilty feeling this way because it's not about "me".
This month is our second cycle since we said goodbye to our son in October. I think what's really making it hard is she could be due near my son's birthday. A child wanted for 8 years. Then there's her beautiful child who will be born into a series of generational bondage that won't seem to quit where responsibility is concerned. She can't even take care of herself right now and she's pregnant?!
Sorry, I'm just frustrated, sad, angry, confused...you name it.
Thanks for listening...
Rebekah
5 months ago she was put in the hospital to come off drugs and alcohol while trying to commit suicide. Now we're finding out she's pregnant.
I'm trying to keep her and especially the baby in prayer but I feel like crap. My baby is buried and we've tried to do everything the right way for 9 years. Not that I'm perfect by any means.....but I'm so angry that she willingly put her baby at risk for birth defects or even drug addiction.
I mean, is God mad at me??
Even right now, I feel guilty feeling this way because it's not about "me".
This month is our second cycle since we said goodbye to our son in October. I think what's really making it hard is she could be due near my son's birthday. A child wanted for 8 years. Then there's her beautiful child who will be born into a series of generational bondage that won't seem to quit where responsibility is concerned. She can't even take care of herself right now and she's pregnant?!
Sorry, I'm just frustrated, sad, angry, confused...you name it.
Thanks for listening...
Rebekah