Having some really bad thoughts tonight :-(

[torch2010]

Where to even start. 16+5 with rainbow number 2. Haven't yet felt baby move but on rainbow number 1 I had by this point.
I never felt my little boy move because he was so poorly. So for me, no movement equals a poorly baby

We heard a really strong, beautiful heartbeat on Wednesday and have another midwife appointment on Thursday. I am having some pain tonight, sort of an ache low down on the right but I am constipated and have wind (sorry TMI) so logically I know that's what's causing the pain.

This is our last baby, there is no way I can go through it again. I feel so sad that the enjoyment of pregnancy has been snatched away from me.

It's my little boys third birthday in heaven in a few weeks and today I ordered his flowers so maybe that's making me more hormonal.

Just needed to write it down

 

[Blue eyes 81]

oh honey being pal is definitely difficult with constant worry.
I know how I have explained it to family and friends what I say is the naivety is gone
Women who are pal know first hand what can go wrong so naturally we worry.
So many things can determine if you feel your lo or not position of your placenta, position of your lo and of course each baby is differnt. I know I went into l&d at 26 wks
because I had not felt our lil girl all day sure enough she was moving like crazy but I could not feel her because of where she was positioned. With that said I am sure your lil one is fine, if you are really worried call your mw/ob and see what they say they will tell you what you should expect at your stage in pregnancy.
Wishing you a H&H rest of your pregnancy.

 

[MamaTex]

Those thoughts aren't bad. They are normal. You are just naturally worried because you love this child so much. I am sure you will feel your little one soon!! You pay closer attention to your body and that can be a blessing and a curse at the same time. I can relate to how you feel about the joys of pregnancy being snatched away. I try to explain this to my husband and he just looks at me like I am being silly. He doesn't understand why I continue to worry and fret. When I explain my feelings to anyone else, they just say I need to relax and enjoy pregnancy but how can one relax when one knows what can happen, at any moment? Just take comfort that you heard a strong heart beat. Wishing you and little one the best!!