He Came Around

[xarlenex]

Ive seen John a few times since we broke up and its been fine, but today was horrible He broke down into uncontrollable tears..I feel like im the devil in disguise. How can I hurt someone so much and really not mean to?

 

[Wobbles]

Oh wow hun I had no idea you and OH had broke up? Is this recent or have I been walking round with my eyes closed

Does he want you?

 

[heather91]

 

[xarlenex]

Oh wow hun I had no idea you and OH had broke up? Is this recent or have I been walking round with my eyes closed

Does he want you?

Yeah nearly 2 weeks ago. Yeah he does want me...but I gave him lots of 'last' chances and I always said if we split I still wanted to be good friends for Kyles sake, so I ended it before I started to hate him to be honest. I fell out of love with him a while ago. I just kept putting it off for Kyles sake. John keeps calling and crying though and I feel horrible

 

[sam's mum]

I hope things start to get easier for you both soon. If you think you two being apart is the right thing for you, don't let yourself feel too guilty for hurting him x

 

[navarababe]

. John keeps calling and crying though and I feel horrible [/QUOTE]

I dont know if im write, and i dont want this to sound nasty or horrible and please dont take it the wrong way, but he may be crying etc to get ur attention, to get u to feel sorry for him, so he knows u'll crack and u'll give him yet again ANOTHER chance.

My ex done that and got his mum to phone me and said he was going to comit suside, so stupid me rushed down there worried, he asked me to stay with him the nite, the next day he was back to his normal self, bossing me about, telling me to make him coffee etc.

YOu have been strong this long, you can make it yourself, just think that you are strong. Im sure you'll b fine hun, and do whats right for you and ur son, NOT because you feel sorry for your ex

 

[Serene123]

It's horrible huh? Me and Rich are sort of the same. He wants the relationship back, I don't.

 

[Always&4ever]

*big hugs*

 

[xarlenex]

He's now asking to come to Disneyland paris with us next year. He said as friends, although he still insists on calling me and saying "how many times have you cried over us spliting up?" Its like he thinks it was an easy thing to do.

I'm really unsure about him coming to paris with us. I'm sure it'd be great for Kyle, but im just not sure it'll be good for me and him. Its only overnight, but I dont know. I know I want to say no, but he said "I dont wanna miss my sons first trip to disneyland".

 

[xarlenex]

It's horrible huh? Me and Rich are sort of the same. He wants the relationship back, I don't.

Does he come to see Caitlyn alot? John takes kyle overnight at weekends but still shows up every now and then, which would be fine if he wasnt going to cry all the time to me

 

[Serene123]

Yeah, he's here all day Saturday and sometimes Sunday. I hate seeing him because he makes me feel so bad. Sometimes I even question myself! I wish I was stronger sometimes but I know I'm doing the right thing.

 

[xarlenex]

Yeah i question myself quite a bit, but more so for Kyle's sake. I keep wondering if i've done right by him. And John constantly asking for more chances doesnt help. Sometimes I really want to believe his promises etc..but ive heard it all before. It's weird adjusting as well, since id been with John from when I just turned 16, its all I ever knew really.