he told me he loved me... i'm so stupid..

[amotherslove]

i don't know what to do.. i'm still so very much in love with him.. i can't believe he doesn't even care.. and he's GOT KIDS. but apparently my kid is not worthy.. what the hell do i do.. i just have no words.. my whole heart is just breaking from the inside out...

 

[SilasLove]

You just keep moving forward. Take baby steps. Obviously he doesn't deserve YOU or the baby.

 

[amotherslove]

but what am i supposed to do? i just.. can't believe this.. he's not this person.. it's like this whole other person has existed inside of the man i love this whole time... </3

 

[Emmyxxlou]

Oh sweetheart! It mist be so hard for you to move on.. But it has to be done for your babies sake and for yours. You just keep moving forward and dont you worry he will soon regret letting you go, You dont need him, and I'm sure you will find someone out there who will love you just the way you are

 

[SilasLove]

Unfortunately some things change the person you are, or bring out the person you TRULY are. And sometimes that is a lesser version of yourself. Maybe he will come around and become that person you know again - but in the meantime you build your life to what you need. And for what your LO will need. You have to find what works for you and how you cope.

I never thought I would be a single mom, but I am now. It sucks and it hurts but I am learning as I go. No one can tell you how to cope, you have to figure that out for yourself n

 

[amotherslove]

thank you.. i just wish it would all go away.

 

[SilasLove]

I do to - everyday. But you are still early in your pregnancy - give him some time to come around. He is most likely just VERY surprised.

 

[MummyJade]

, its never nice when they shock you being acting like someone you don't know... he could be very surprised about the pregnancy and just needs to get his head around it, sadly the way he is acting is hurting you....

Just take every day as it comes, don't beg him or show you need him....

xx

 

[Rhio92]

xxx

 

[amotherslove]

unfortunately he's not coming around.. i made a bad mistake letting him take me for a ride.. and i believed his lies.. he's with her.. and he's not coming back.. he says he wants to be in my childs life.. but i don't want to have to explain to my child why daddy loves his other kids more. i let him tell me he was done with his marriage and was getting out of it.. and then once he had me hooked i let him tell me he couldnt leave because of the kids.. and i'm stupid.. and i'm sorry if this angers anyone (as i'm sure it will, many of you, myself included, having been cheated on) but i was naive.. he told me she was horrible.. i was stupid to let that change my morals even for a second, and now i suffer for it.. and my LO will suffer for it.. i have learned my lesson.. and i have learned to not believe one side of a two sided story. i wish i could give her back what ive taken, what he's taken.. but i can't.. i have so much remorse for what we did.. for what ive done.. i'm glad he led me out of the sexually abusive relationship i was in before him.. but i made a large mistake in believing him for the length of time that i did.

 

[SilasLove]

Huge

I know it isn't easy honey. But with time it will get better and although you will have a part of him with you every day that child will become the most important thing in your life and will heal a lot of your pain. xx

 

[iyawo]

I think its healthy to pay attention to the persons actions, not there words. Also, as hard as it may seem...there are so many things you can do to distract yourself and take away the pain in little bits and pieces, but in reality you have to go through it to get through it! Wishing you groundedness, strength and self love for you....

 

[amotherslove]

thanks you all.