I can totally relate with everything you said. I'm so sorry you had to go through this; it has got to be the toughest thing a person can ever go through. If you are like me, my loss was my first pregnancy and I feel like my innocence has been stolen. I look around and see every one of my friends and acquaintances get pregnant and have beautiful healthy children. I've never questioned if I did anything wrong, because I know I didn't. I often question why me, why me, why me, where did I go wrong in life, did I screw someone over and this is how god is repaying me? Other days I am thankful, thankful that I didn't die that day too. I guess our feelings come in waves. Not to mention my best friend is pregnant now, and it's killing me, I have never been so depressed in my life. I feel like her pregnancy has totally over shadowed my grief and I am obsessed with trying to get pregnant again.
I think everything you are experiencing and every emotion is 100% normal.
I wish you nothing but the best. I'm sure you will have your healthy, beautiful baby in the near future
I can totally relate with everything you said. I'm so sorry you had to go through this; it has got to be the toughest thing a person can ever go through. If you are like me, my loss was my first pregnancy and I feel like my innocence has been stolen. I look around and see every one of my friends and acquaintances get pregnant and have beautiful healthy children. I've never questioned if I did anything wrong, because I know I didn't. I often question why me, why me, why me, where did I go wrong in life, did I screw someone over and this is how god is repaying me? Other days I am thankful, thankful that I didn't die that day too. I guess our feelings come in waves. Not to mention my best friend is pregnant now, and it's killing me, I have never been so depressed in my life. I feel like her pregnancy has totally over shadowed my grief and I am obsessed with trying to get pregnant again.
I think everything you are experiencing and every emotion is 100% normal.
I wish you nothing but the best. I'm sure you will have your healthy, beautiful baby in the near future
Hi I am like you I do wonder if I did something wrong and worry I could have changed things. I dont blame God though, I know he doesnt punish people, regardless of what people are told. You arent being punished either honey
My sis is pregand not being very understanding, it is tough isnt it. But our time will come lovey you wait and see. We are stronger kinder people for all this and we will get our time xx
Here for you if you ever want a chat. I mean that. Take care xx
I can totally relate with everything you said. I'm so sorry you had to go through this; it has got to be the toughest thing a person can ever go through. If you are like me, my loss was my first pregnancy and I feel like my innocence has been stolen. I look around and see every one of my friends and acquaintances get pregnant and have beautiful healthy children. I've never questioned if I did anything wrong, because I know I didn't. I often question why me, why me, why me, where did I go wrong in life, did I screw someone over and this is how god is repaying me? Other days I am thankful, thankful that I didn't die that day too. I guess our feelings come in waves. Not to mention my best friend is pregnant now, and it's killing me, I have never been so depressed in my life. I feel like her pregnancy has totally over shadowed my grief and I am obsessed with trying to get pregnant again.
I think everything you are experiencing and every emotion is 100% normal.
I wish you nothing but the best. I'm sure you will have your healthy, beautiful baby in the near future
Hi I am like you I do wonder if I did something wrong and worry I could have changed things. I dont blame God though, I know he doesnt punish people, regardless of what people are told. You arent being punished either honey
My sis is pregand not being very understanding, it is tough isnt it. But our time will come lovey you wait and see. We are stronger kinder people for all this and we will get our time xx
Here for you if you ever want a chat. I mean that. Take care xx
I might just take you up on that darling You ladies are the only people who can relate to how I am feeling these past 4 months. It all sucks!
Do you plan on trying again soon?
Bec, I hope you find the strength to try again, another baby would be lucky to have you for a mama Get lots of rest so that your bad back gets better as well.
Kelly, days get easier for sure, just take it one day at a time. I hope you are surrounded by positive people, because it certainly helps at times like this. It helped me a lot getting back to work and into my normal routine again. Hopefully it will help you as well. I hope you are doing ok all things considered?
I'm kind of down in the dumps, had a chat with my pregnant friend last night pretty much told her it's too painful to be around her right now (she is 17 weeks now), she understands but told me she needs me more than ever It's just too hard.
your post about the good and bad days makes lots of sense, thats how I would describe it only I'm still crying on the good days but it's only been a few weeks for me. I find it helpful to hear that things will get better cause sometimes I really wonder if they will but if others keep saying it will happen then I can believe it will happen.
The heaviness is exactly what I have, feels like it will never leave. Sometimes I don't notice it as much other times it seems unbearable. I have a hard time talking about Hannah without crying but I like to talk about her. I don't want friends and family to forget I had a daughter. At night time when I tell my son and her that I love them and ask her to watch over us I usually end up bawling but lately I tell Hannah that I just don't want to cry anymore that it hurts to much and I try to find a calm place where I'm not crying but where I can drift off to sleep thinking about her. Mostly I just want to fast forward time so that I can be through this hard part and at the point where I know she's there and thats all I need.
Thanks for listening.
We couldn't get pregnant if we wanted to. Hannah was an ivf/icsi baby. We've put our self back on the waitlist but we won't get in till spring. I just hope it works the first time this go.
Me too, I can't handle anymore heart break.