Its like this every month for me. Each cycle i look forward to something happening. I count down the days until AF and then test the day of and its always been a BFN! UGH! We have only been trying for 4 months, and I know SO many couples have been trying longer than we have.. But i feel like I go through this roller coaster of emotions every month, and each month ends with disappointment, sadness, and frustration!