Hoping for my rainbow

[VioletsMommy]

Hi all. My signature basically says it all, but... I'm 9 dpo into my second cycle of TTC after I lost my daughter Violet 13 months ago at 7w2d. I know most people would say it was too early to give her a name or even to know she was a girl, but I knew, in my heart I knew - and when I decided to give her a name, I sat up all night looking at names but one kept popping back into my head, and I'm convinced my angel baby told *me* her name.

Anyways, I am now TTC via at home AI and feeling positive about this cycle! Trying to keep a good thought because I did with Violet and she was my first BFP. I have endometriosis and had two failed IUIs in 2011. Since then I lost one ovary, which I thought would come as a blow to my fertility, but instead, it's been a GOOD thing! When I did my IUIs they had to give me a trigger shot to cause ovulation - but since the surgery, my remaining ovary seems to have gotten the message that it's time to get to work!

I am hoping and praying for a BFP, but more than anything I'm praying not to mc again, because that was the worst thing that's ever happened to me and I cried myself to sleep for months. I keep hoping that Violet is up there watching over Mommy and sending her little brother or sister down to fill my arms until I can hold her.

to all of you and your babies, in your arms or in your hearts, and here's to hoping for our rainbows!

 

[Bevziibubble]

Hi and welcome to BabyandBump!

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss

Wishing you the best of luck with TTC and I hope that you are blessed with your rainbow baby soon!

 

[cupolatte]

Hi VioletsMommy,

That is a lovely name. I hope this time around will be the one and God will put a beautiful, healthy baby into your arms. This is what I will be praying for you.

 

[VioletsMommy]

Thank you both so much I love my little girl, even if for now I can't hold her in my arms, only in my heart. I'm praying she's sending a little brother or sister down to comfort Mommy until she and I can be together again

 

[flou]

violetsmommy. Im sorry for your loss. I hope both of us and all the other ladies get their rainbows soon!