That's really interesting! And makes me feel better
I did hypnobirthing for my birth and my yells were very loud aaahhh's. I also have anxiety (health anxiety in particular which doesn't help) and found natal hypnotherapy made me so much calmer during the whole birth process. I highly recommend it
Ok! So it's not like I'm reading the books incorrectly.
I tried listening to hypnobirth stuff last time, and different types of hypnosis over the last few years. Perhaps due to childhood issues, but hypnosis makes me really anxious and angry for days after doing it. I've been told it has something to do with feeling out of control or being told what to do.
Too bad because I think it helped make my last labour faster. Maybe I'll just listen to guided meditation which achieves a similar type of relaxation without all the anger coming up.
And last time I had an epidural too, but my body doesn't take in anesthesia well, so I still felt a lot of pain. Not even sure how much of the pain was numbed.