How do you really cope?

[glpj]

I am 28 years old and my husband and I had been trying to get pregnant for 3 years. I was 8 weeks pregnant and started bleeding. I went to the ER and they said my HCG levels had dropped significantly and that I had miscarried. I can't even explain how hard it was to look him in the eyes and tell him that the miracle we had waited so long for... was just gone. I can't help but blame myself, while obviously in the back of my mind knowing that I didn't do anything wrong. The cruel thing is that I have to go back to work, I have to go on with life... after already experiencing the first part of pregnancy symptoms and being so elated. Life was so wonderful for 4 weeks. I can't stop crying. I'm just beside myself. I'm on bedrest so I can't exercise it out of my system. I can't cry it out because there is no end to it. Many of my friends are pregnant and about to pop. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to see their happiness, and their lives going on without a hitch. I'm not sure where to go from here. 4 weeks ago my life changed and my husband and I were so happy. Today we are dealing with day 3 post mc, and we can't even look at each other without crying.

 

[shirlls]

I am so sorry . I wish I could say something to make you feel better but sadly there isn't anything I can say or do that will make you feel better at this horrible time. I have had 4 mcs and they never get any easier, it is a truly awful thing to have to experience made even worse when you have friends ready to pop. I remember a few days after my second mc a friend telling me she was pregnant to her 'friend with benefits' and I really struggled to get my head round it and not feel bitter as she was'n't trying and didn't even want a baby, yet I'd just lost my second longed for baby. Life is just so unfair and cruel at times .

I am thinking of you, time does heal although you'll never forget your baby. Pm me if you need to chat or rant

xx