hurting so bad

[rockabillymom]

So I officially moved out of my home that FOB and I had together. I called him that morning to ask if he was really done cause when he left me a week before our first came he came crawling back begging for me to be with him again then a month after Lo was born he took of again and came back 3 monthes later. He say this time he wants nothing to do with me and doesnt even want to speak to me unless its about our first DD or im in labor with second DD. Makes me wanna cry cause he put me through so much hell with cheating and leaving me so many times that I feel like all my hard work to forgive and forget was for nothing. I can honestly say that I hate him more now then ever and I wish he would just get out of my life but I know thats not possible since we have two DD's together. I just dont know what to do anymore to stop from crying and being so stressed out.

 

[lovingmommy]

Oh, hun. I'm so sorry My break up is still so fresh as well. We were supposed to get married in 3 months and he called it off and moved out. It's only been 2 weeks since the break up and like 4 days since he moved out. It's tough, I still cry every day and night. Last night I locked myself in the bathroom while my daughter was asleep. But, now it's time to pick myself up and start a routine for my daughter and I. I really hope you find peace soon. If you're a Christian I found myself listening to Christian music during the day made me a lot stronger. Even if I cried along, i still felt stronger. Also, if you read, read until you fall asleep. I really hope everything gets okay soon. Stay strong, hun. I know it's hard, but just worry about yourself and your daughters for now. it will get better in time, hopefully for the both of us.

 

[Ceejay123]

be strong, you can do this! Your girlies will keep your spirits up x

 

[Laura2919]

I'm sorry hun It's not easy at first but it does get better. I've been apart from FOB for nearly 10 months and at first I'd have probably taken him back in a heartbeat, not for loving him cos I knew I didn't but because the future was so scary, not knowing what things would be like.

You'll get there.

 

[MissJayde]

thinking of you all. Breaking up bites...... I found out I was pregnant 4 weeks after I left my cheating ex. That was over 12 months ago now. It is hard, there is only one set of hands and half the time you wish for two. But it is the most rewarding thing to do. There is no one to undermine you with the way you are raising your kids!
How long it takes to get used to being on your own is an individual thing - for me it was three months. I still have rough days but you know what, this only makes me stronger. I only speak to my ex in relation to my kids. Each and every one of us can be awesome single parents - you just have to believe in yourself!

 

[Shezza84uk]

Sending you massive hugs try to be strong he WILL eat his words! Put yourself and your girls first now let him carry on being an arse, you will recover as time is a great healer and eventually you will find happiness and reasons to smile again x

 

[Natsku]

 

[rockabillymom]

Thank you all. Im trying so hard to get along with him. Yesterday when I tried to tell him we should put our personal emotions aside to make sure that LO does feel the tension or the fighting he told me to F off and he didnt have to do anything I asked him anymore or listen to me. Everytime he picks her up he grabs her and walks away and it breaks my heart cause I barely get a chance to say goodbye sometimes to LO. I asked him why he seems to hate me so much when he is the one that ended things and he refuses to talk to me about any of it. So whatever I just keep track of our conversations.