I have always struggled with anxiety...since my first child was born 10 yrs ago. Its been relatively mild, and only occasionally got severe enough to warrant meds. My biggest triggers are medical/health issues. It could be nothing, but I fret and worry and panic about a worse case scenario. It has progressively gotten worse, and since I am now pregnant with my 4th (due in February) and last child, I am not taking any meds. It has been especially bad since September, which is mainly because I have joined a recovery group to try and uncover the roots of these fears, and deal with them so I can finally be free from them. since joining, there have been multiple health issues come up. My 5 yr old son has the herpes cold sore virus and has had constant cold sore outbreaks since the end of september and even though 2 peds at our practice have said its not anything to worry about, I cant let it go. I also just found out I am mildly anemic, which just makes me think something serious is being masked...even though the dr said its very normal in pregnancy. I just cant seem to stop worrying and obsessing over things and I dont know whether i need meds at this point or whether I just need to keep fighting the fears so I overcome instead of just mask or buffer it for a while. I want to be free from this, but feel so alone and miserable.