I am TTC but keep grieving for my lost baby

[loup]

I was told yesterday by a 45 yr old new mum, that i am letting time slip away for having a family.

I am 29.

I have had 4 misscarriages under 2 months and one stillborn at 5 and a half months.

I am just about level headed again, and now feel very pressurised to hurry up and get pregnant.

Each month is agony when i am 1 to 2 weeks late but theres only one blue line. Or as happened last month, 2 blue lines and another early misscarriage.

I have had all the tests, I am fine apparently.

I am really scared that our dream of a big family in a farm house will not be happening and we'l end up 60 yrs old with fish and dogs instead, smiling across the room at eachother with resentment in our eyes.

 

[ashrxxx]

Hello honey..
I am so so sorry to hear of your losses, i feel your pain so much, and i no exactly what your saying...

I am on my 4th cycle since my m/c and each month when i realise i havent falling PG i break down and i am hysterical, and i promise i wont be that next month, but i still break down and feel my heart breaking, i would of been 21 weeks, as cow and gate emails keep telling me


I got used to AF arriving before the m/c but when it arrives now its like a knive to the chest and it hurts more now, especially the "what ifs?"

I just wanted to let you know if you fancy a chat anytime just send me a pm, i keep getting told it "DOES" get easier and i suppose time is a healer....

Love and thoughts to you honey, i hope you get that much wanted baby vey soon, love Ashx xxx

 

[Barneyboo]

Just wanted to say so sorry for your loss and I hope for your with lots of x x x x

 

[millymolly]

Welcome to BnB...so sorry to hear the sadness you have experienced.

At 28 you have plenty of time on your side and if tests show all is okay, I'm sure you will have your longed for baby soon.

I am 42 and time is not on my side...I am fortunate to have two son's from my previous marriage but have been TTC for two years with my DH. I have had two mc's which have been really difficult to cope with but I can only imagine what it was like to be unfortunate to experience a stillborn...it must have been even more devastating!

Its easier said than done but try and relax and enjoy life with your OH...all of us TTC can let it take over our lives...I know as I have tried hard to not let that happen, (even though with time against me, I could stop OV at any time)...just try and remain positve!

Take care
x

 

[todteach]

I am so sorry to hear about your losses. I had a missed miscarriage in May. I'm 28 DH is 29.

Take your time hun. My fingers are crossed for your next .

Right now you are also grieving your losses. Take time for that. It sure is a rough road. You are not letting time slip away. Don't ever let anyone tell you that.

Sending you big Take care.