Kittique
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My Mum... I know it sounds awful to even say it, but she's pushed me to the brink of sanity and even seeing her name come up on my phone makes my stress levels shoot up and I start to hyperventilate. I have stopped answering her calls and now have to have my DH talk to her.. I think I just need a rant and someone to give me something....any suggestions on how best to cope with her.. or am I overreacting...I don't feel like I am.
Our situation is really complicated, I live in her house. She lives at my grandmas house as her carer as she is ill, I used to live with my grandma and we swapped after I found out i was pregnant because I could not carry on with the heavy lifting, cleaning of mess etc and I work full -time too. I still do visit of course and help out. My mum comes home occasionally. She has not asked for any rent but my DH has redecorated the whole house and bought new things like washing machine etc. Just trying to do what we can to help out while trying to pay off our own debt. It has been very helpful to stay here and I really do appreciate it.
My mum hasn't worked for 27 years because of a variety of mental health issues and cancer (8 years ago) though honestly - she is perfectly capable and able and has been for years. She is very out of touch with the real world and doesn't even understand tax and national insurance. She gets disability benefits and has a mortgage (privately owned home) but doesn't pay it because she doesn't feel like she should as she has no money, so we have been paying the shortfall. She constantly complains when she gets a letter that shows the mortgage amount has stayed the same - I honestly don't know what she expects. She spends all her money on dresses on ebay and cheap items from china, has multiple catalogue accounts she does not pay and we are constantly getting letters at both her address and my grandmas for overdue bill payments. Anyways, it is clear from this that my Mum and I do not share the same world view. I believe in being rewarded for working hard, paying bills and being responsible and she seems to live in a dream world where everything is handed to her. She has no interests apart from a group of friends who go out to lunch and now - my daughter.
She has said on a number of occasions 'people say having a grandaughter is like having your own baby all over again' and 'I can't wait to take her to mother and baby groups', and the other day after visiting a friend who has just had a grandaughter 'oh its lovely their baby is attached to the grandparent more than the mum!' I could have punched her at that moment (I am not violent, I just felt like I was losing the will to live!!!) It's like she expect this baby to be hers. She has already made plans on where is taking her with her friends and her friends grandkids - people I have never even met.
I am struggling with how little she seems to respect me and my wishes for my child. She continually buys things that I do not want for the baby such as items from China (which i unfortunately struggle to trust as they are usually not very well made/safe...) - a pink, fluffly, diamante encrusted coat with frills and lace all over it that molts everywhere, fake armani and Dior glittery accessories for newborns. DH and I have explained to her a number of times we appreciate she wants to buy things but we do not want our daughter to wear these items. She simply says OK she will only wear them when I have her then.. She has now started to buy items for 12-18 months when we have explained - we are moving into private rent in the summer, we currently have nowhere to store items for over a year!! I don't need her to keep buying these things! I tell her to pay her bills instead of wasting the money on this and she doesn't listen. She has very little tact when speaking to her and will not listen to anyones opinion, she starts talking over you, and when you try to respond she will start looking the other way or start a conversation with someone else, or even worse... just get her phone out.
She makes sweeping comments about how disgusting she finds something (eg a tattoo her niece got) and then looks at me for a response ( I have 12 tattoos!!). I honestly think she just does this to irritate me - what does she expect me to say to that? she then went on about how its destroying your body and she had eczema how can people get a tattoo when people have skin conditions? I just despair????
When baby is born I have asked if we could have a week on our own afterwards so we can recover and get to know our baby. Bearing in mind at the moment, she does not come to the house for weeks at a time. She has said she wants to be there every day and will be moving back in ASAP and she will find someone else to care for Grandma. She wants to be in the birth room (DH has put his foot down and told her she will not be there) and wants to be waiting outside instead. The thought of this just makes me stressed just thinking about it. I took her to one of my appointments, she spoke FOR me, didn't let me get a word in, then proceeded to TELL ME how it went and what happened - like I wasn't there?
What gets me even more is she has had a cough for 6 months. I have been going on at her for at least 3 months to see a doctor, it took her until last week to go to the DR who has told her she has a severe viral infection and needs blood tests and an Xray. She told me this last week so I said ok when is the appointment for this 'I dont know'..... I said well ring the hospital? 'I dont have the blood test form'.... I lose my patience with her even more so at the moment and end up just shouting at her why can't you just get it - I will even get it for her! she just respons 'I cant because I am not nearby'. This has been going on for weeks, she has to drive 20 mins to the dr surgery to pick up the forms and then go to the hospital to wait for the blood test etc, but she won't do it. She is too lazy. She cannot be bothered to do that for herself or for the safety of her grandaughter. We have been told our baby has IUGR, she is going to be small, she knows this. I have flat out told her she IS NOT coming anywhere near her with a viral infection until she has her tests done and we know what is wrong. She again refuses and says 'oh its fine ill just wear a mask!' and starts laughing. I CANNOT do this any more!!!! I just want her to go away! I feel so horrible saying it but she is just a nightmare to be around and I can't stand her anymore.
She has just set me off again as shes just rang me (wasn't going to pick it up, wish i hadn't) to tell me a letter has come for me with a bill for £1250 demanding it immediately (council tax) and she 'just thought she'd let me know' and hangs up. She lost the last CT letter...so now it's gone overdue (she only told me friday! I pay the CT at my grandmas) No information, I don't have my car to go get the letter so now I'm just like .... WTF was the purpose of that??
How am i supposed to handle this! I am starting to think we just need to move out now, though it means we can't pay any of our debts off and will just be going straight into private rent which we can only just barely afford as it is Am I just over reacting. My emotions are so screwed right now my stress levels from her just send me into a complete state. I have also been going through a legal dispute at work over my SMP, started a new job 2 months ago I don't know how much more i can take I am starting to hate everyone even DH!!!
Our situation is really complicated, I live in her house. She lives at my grandmas house as her carer as she is ill, I used to live with my grandma and we swapped after I found out i was pregnant because I could not carry on with the heavy lifting, cleaning of mess etc and I work full -time too. I still do visit of course and help out. My mum comes home occasionally. She has not asked for any rent but my DH has redecorated the whole house and bought new things like washing machine etc. Just trying to do what we can to help out while trying to pay off our own debt. It has been very helpful to stay here and I really do appreciate it.
My mum hasn't worked for 27 years because of a variety of mental health issues and cancer (8 years ago) though honestly - she is perfectly capable and able and has been for years. She is very out of touch with the real world and doesn't even understand tax and national insurance. She gets disability benefits and has a mortgage (privately owned home) but doesn't pay it because she doesn't feel like she should as she has no money, so we have been paying the shortfall. She constantly complains when she gets a letter that shows the mortgage amount has stayed the same - I honestly don't know what she expects. She spends all her money on dresses on ebay and cheap items from china, has multiple catalogue accounts she does not pay and we are constantly getting letters at both her address and my grandmas for overdue bill payments. Anyways, it is clear from this that my Mum and I do not share the same world view. I believe in being rewarded for working hard, paying bills and being responsible and she seems to live in a dream world where everything is handed to her. She has no interests apart from a group of friends who go out to lunch and now - my daughter.
She has said on a number of occasions 'people say having a grandaughter is like having your own baby all over again' and 'I can't wait to take her to mother and baby groups', and the other day after visiting a friend who has just had a grandaughter 'oh its lovely their baby is attached to the grandparent more than the mum!' I could have punched her at that moment (I am not violent, I just felt like I was losing the will to live!!!) It's like she expect this baby to be hers. She has already made plans on where is taking her with her friends and her friends grandkids - people I have never even met.
I am struggling with how little she seems to respect me and my wishes for my child. She continually buys things that I do not want for the baby such as items from China (which i unfortunately struggle to trust as they are usually not very well made/safe...) - a pink, fluffly, diamante encrusted coat with frills and lace all over it that molts everywhere, fake armani and Dior glittery accessories for newborns. DH and I have explained to her a number of times we appreciate she wants to buy things but we do not want our daughter to wear these items. She simply says OK she will only wear them when I have her then.. She has now started to buy items for 12-18 months when we have explained - we are moving into private rent in the summer, we currently have nowhere to store items for over a year!! I don't need her to keep buying these things! I tell her to pay her bills instead of wasting the money on this and she doesn't listen. She has very little tact when speaking to her and will not listen to anyones opinion, she starts talking over you, and when you try to respond she will start looking the other way or start a conversation with someone else, or even worse... just get her phone out.
She makes sweeping comments about how disgusting she finds something (eg a tattoo her niece got) and then looks at me for a response ( I have 12 tattoos!!). I honestly think she just does this to irritate me - what does she expect me to say to that? she then went on about how its destroying your body and she had eczema how can people get a tattoo when people have skin conditions? I just despair????
When baby is born I have asked if we could have a week on our own afterwards so we can recover and get to know our baby. Bearing in mind at the moment, she does not come to the house for weeks at a time. She has said she wants to be there every day and will be moving back in ASAP and she will find someone else to care for Grandma. She wants to be in the birth room (DH has put his foot down and told her she will not be there) and wants to be waiting outside instead. The thought of this just makes me stressed just thinking about it. I took her to one of my appointments, she spoke FOR me, didn't let me get a word in, then proceeded to TELL ME how it went and what happened - like I wasn't there?
What gets me even more is she has had a cough for 6 months. I have been going on at her for at least 3 months to see a doctor, it took her until last week to go to the DR who has told her she has a severe viral infection and needs blood tests and an Xray. She told me this last week so I said ok when is the appointment for this 'I dont know'..... I said well ring the hospital? 'I dont have the blood test form'.... I lose my patience with her even more so at the moment and end up just shouting at her why can't you just get it - I will even get it for her! she just respons 'I cant because I am not nearby'. This has been going on for weeks, she has to drive 20 mins to the dr surgery to pick up the forms and then go to the hospital to wait for the blood test etc, but she won't do it. She is too lazy. She cannot be bothered to do that for herself or for the safety of her grandaughter. We have been told our baby has IUGR, she is going to be small, she knows this. I have flat out told her she IS NOT coming anywhere near her with a viral infection until she has her tests done and we know what is wrong. She again refuses and says 'oh its fine ill just wear a mask!' and starts laughing. I CANNOT do this any more!!!! I just want her to go away! I feel so horrible saying it but she is just a nightmare to be around and I can't stand her anymore.
She has just set me off again as shes just rang me (wasn't going to pick it up, wish i hadn't) to tell me a letter has come for me with a bill for £1250 demanding it immediately (council tax) and she 'just thought she'd let me know' and hangs up. She lost the last CT letter...so now it's gone overdue (she only told me friday! I pay the CT at my grandmas) No information, I don't have my car to go get the letter so now I'm just like .... WTF was the purpose of that??
How am i supposed to handle this! I am starting to think we just need to move out now, though it means we can't pay any of our debts off and will just be going straight into private rent which we can only just barely afford as it is Am I just over reacting. My emotions are so screwed right now my stress levels from her just send me into a complete state. I have also been going through a legal dispute at work over my SMP, started a new job 2 months ago I don't know how much more i can take I am starting to hate everyone even DH!!!