I can't handle it anymore Im normally strong but just now i just feel like im having a breakdown. I can't cry infront of no-one i don't want them to see me upset, but as soon as im alone i burst into tears and i can't stop. Im so worried about my mum. Shes ill herself and all this stress and worry is too much for her. She phones every hour and everytime shes sobbing, i just wish i could make it all better for her more than anyone else i can't stand to see her like that. I don't know what to do. I've been crying for half hour non stop. Ive got a real bad headache and feel really sick, but i just can;t stop myself. I really wanted oh to come down today but hes got his mate staying over again, he doesn't even know how bad my grandads got, he hasn't asked or even asked how i feel or if i need him. I wish he was more supportive in these sort of situations, i just text him saying ' i need you ' and the reply i got was ' i know you do babe but you have got to get used to being on your own for when im not there. ( hes refering this too because we have just moved from my bedroom into the front room, and i feel uneasy being on my own ina new room!' i just text back saying ' i dont fucking mean that'