I dont know what Im doing

[groovyclo]

Im sorry Im not sure if I should be posting here..

I had a miscarriage when I was 16..3 years ago at 8 weeks.

The thing is at the time i was young I had just split up with my boyfriend and I never really let it sink in I think.

Im recently married and me and my husband are TTC but just recently I've been speaking to my ex online (my husband knows) and now all I can think about is him and the baby I lost.

We never had a goodbye we never really split up I supose (complicated) so I never got to see him after the mc and now all I wanna do is see him and hug him and cry and just be with him for a while and talk.

I dont know what to do its in my head all the time Ive got no one to talk to about it and its eating me up and I cant talk about it with my husband properly becasue hes quite sensitive, but Id never do anything behind his back.

Im sorry I just needed to get all that out x

 

[borntobeamum]

Firstly sorry for your loss.

It will still be raw, and its understandable that you think of your baby and your ex.

Hope you find away to get through this and get the comfort you need.

 

[Naya69]

i think maybe talkin to your ex might cause problems with your marriage unless your husband is very understanding. maybe you could try and talk to your hubby about the loss you had some men can be very understanding and can shook us women with how understanding they can be i hope you find some closure soon xxx

 

[AlwaysPraying]

There is a very deep connection between a father and mother, even in the case of a miscarriage. I'm sorry to hear that happened to you and at such a young age. I have a similar story that I haven't really told to anyone, so I do see partly what your going through.

Depending on how he and your husband is, you could do something to commemorate your baby. Do a goodbye to your baby and to your relationship. It could be healthy for you to help you move on. Also including your husband could be a good idea, to let him know more about you and to unite you two going on. Just some ideas for what they are worth.