I'm not sure where it would be okay to post this but I just have to get it off my chest. My son is 8 months old now and I'm feeling like I can't do this anymore. He has been a very difficult baby and everyone keeps telling me to wait and he'll get better but it hasn't gotten any easier. He wad very colicky when he was small and has acid reflux. He would literally cry the whole time he was awake besides from when he was drinking a bottle. He has gotten a little better but still growls, whines, or cries at least 80% of the time that he is awake. It just seems like he's never happy and I don't know what to do anymore. Nothing I do makes him happy and nothing keeps him entertained. I can't even just sit and hold my baby ever because he gets mad and will throw a temper tantrum and try to scratch me and get away. He hates being in the carseat so car rides will not calm him down. I try to take him for walks and he grunts and growls the whole time in the stroller. I have friends who's babies are close in age to him and they are so calm and happy and I wish my son would be like that. I feel like I haven't been able to enjoy him being a baby. Everyone always says they don't want their baby to grow up but I cannot wait for him to get bigger and not be a baby anymore. I'm a single mother so I never get any nights where I can just relax and rest. He goes to sleep really late and is always up early the next morning so I'm always tired and have to get up and listen to him growl all day. It's almost impossible to get anything done around the house when he's awake because he throws a tantrum a little after I put him down. I wanted him so badly before he was here but now at times I feel like if I could go back I would've chose to never have kids. I feel horrible saying that but after 8 months of this it's hard. I can't ask anyone to watch him just so I can get a break because no one wants to because of how difficult he is. I feel like I'm the only one going through this because everyone else I know has never had kids like this and I just don't know how much longer I can handle it =(