I feel like I'm losing my mind!

[analyticalema]

I'm over due and there is a risk that if the hospital lets me go the full two weeks over that this baby maybe born on the day I lost my baby Jesse!

I can't cope with the thought of it at all and I'm doing everything I can to try and get things started short of lighting a fire up there to smoke her out...

When I first found out that she was due in October it gave me comfort almost like Jesse had sent her to me but now I'm petrified that she will arrive on that date... I know it's slightly irrational and an odd thing to be thinking about now but I can't help it!

I really do know that I should be focusing on the new baby but Jesse was my baby too and I really don't know how I will be able to cope without the thought that this baby may be born on the anniversary of Jesse's death. I don't want that association for her too...

Don't know how to feel or think at the moment just needed to say it.

Thanks for reading. Xx

 

[kafs78]

aw huni - i fully understand what your thinking.. but try and think that everything happens for a reason.... if baby does come on that day - then that is what nature intends... and try and take some comfort from it.

X

 

[Vickieh1981]

Can't you stamp your feet at the hospital and tell them how hard this is and not good for your mental health?

They are inducing me 2 weeks early. I think if you are already overdue then you are not unreasonable to ask for induction xx

 

[Wantabean]

no way would i settle for this!! that would ruin me. i know my hosp induce you if your 10days over as standard. tellthem you want induced before and tell them why. hope it gets sorted for you xxx