noshowjo
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i cant even write this without my heart beating sososo fast , as some of you already know my little foster daughter who has lived with me for almost 3 years will be adopted soon to go with her siblings ,
i know she will be with them but im having heart renching dreams about her going , im not gonna be able to cope , im so scared of loosing her , i wanted to adopt her my self but she is already going to a family who are also adopting her siblins ,
she doesnt even know her siblins . not like she loves me , she does not want to go either .
im sorry for ranting but im so upset , its just 7 weeks untill the adoption prosess starts , I LOVE HER LIKE MY OWN . she been here for sososo long . most carers have children either a year or bit longer , or long term , not 3 years then taken , i just know im gonna miss her so much
what can i do to ease the pain , i know i wanna spend loads of time with her but this makes me more aware of how fab she is , but if i put up a wall to protect my heart will she think the day she goes i didnt want her ?
i know she will be with them but im having heart renching dreams about her going , im not gonna be able to cope , im so scared of loosing her , i wanted to adopt her my self but she is already going to a family who are also adopting her siblins ,
she doesnt even know her siblins . not like she loves me , she does not want to go either .
im sorry for ranting but im so upset , its just 7 weeks untill the adoption prosess starts , I LOVE HER LIKE MY OWN . she been here for sososo long . most carers have children either a year or bit longer , or long term , not 3 years then taken , i just know im gonna miss her so much
what can i do to ease the pain , i know i wanna spend loads of time with her but this makes me more aware of how fab she is , but if i put up a wall to protect my heart will she think the day she goes i didnt want her ?