I got my bfn!! Hurrraaaaayyyy!!!

[Tina_TTC2]

No, this is not a typo. YES I am celebrating a BFN. Confused?? LOL!

OK - Here's why - I unfortunately miscarried last week - well the baby died the week before so it's been nearly 2 weeks. My HCG levels were horrid so never got very high, but I didn't know how long it would take for them to reduce.


The GOOD news in all the misery, is that my body is ready to Ovulate again, now that the HCG has dropped. This means that my BFN indicates I can think about trying to get pregnant again! So while the last few days have been miserable and sad - the shining moment here is that I am ready to start anew. Ready to turn the leaf and look forward to my next, hopefully healthy, pregnancy.

This will probably be the last time you see me celebrating a BFN - and I'm not sure you've seen many people celebrate it in the past .... but I am now.

I'm hoping I will ovulate this month - though I need to check with my Dr because they said no BD for 14 days, and that might be a problem if we want to try. (I had a D&C on Friday) - I'll see if they'll allow me to at 10 days instead of 14...

we shall see - in any event, it's the start of something new, and I am looking forward to the journey I'm truly back in TTC and look forward to it now..

Love you all..

 

[taylor&bryson]

That is great that you are turning something negative into something positive and lots of sticky baby dust your way!!!

 

[Molly5186]

That is good news, I mean considering the situation! I remember I was excited to see AF show up...that's NEVER going to happen again I can guarantee it!

 

[Mummylou23]

im sorry for ur lost hun i hope u get ur bfp soon chick xxx take care xxx

 

[MrsPOP]

Its so nice to see someone who's had such a rough time have some good PMA about the next stage. Good luck to you x

 

[Tina_TTC2]

Thank you everyone!! MrsPop - I think you have cleared up a mystery for me - I had seen PMA before and didn't know what it meant - but by your inference I can only assume it means "positive mental attitude''?

I can't live in misery - it's to miserable ... lol There's enough sadness in this world and strife and misery - everywhere you turn. Too much. If we don't try to find our own little light, no one can/will find it for us.

Also - I think we are on CD 5 together - so maybe we can buddy up? I'm considering the D&C day as CD 5 - not sure if I'm way off but it's my closest guess...

 

[caRISSasBump]

i thought it was a typo

i am sorry for your loss. i hope this time you get the stickiest baby ever!

 

[Born2BeAMommy]

love the PMA!! sorry for you loss, but God Bless you for handling it with such strength! Hope you get that BFP soon!

 

[SugarFairy]

Yay for your BFN! I'm in the same boat, just waiting a few more days to test again and get a BFN before we can start trying again. Big hugs and good luck!! x

 

[Green Lady]

Wow, I'm impressed by you! I had an early miscarriage and I know it was actually a bit of a relief when my period came, I was worried I'd be out for months. All the best to you and stay strong!

 

[MrsPOP]

Thank you everyone!! MrsPop - I think you have cleared up a mystery for me - I had seen PMA before and didn't know what it meant - but by your inference I can only assume it means "positive mental attitude''?

I can't live in misery - it's to miserable ... lol There's enough sadness in this world and strife and misery - everywhere you turn. Too much. If we don't try to find our own little light, no one can/will find it for us.

Also - I think we are on CD 5 together - so maybe we can buddy up? I'm considering the D&C day as CD 5 - not sure if I'm way off but it's my closest guess...

Oh yeah, you gotta love the PMA! I lost mine yesterday but slowly getting it back as O day approaches lol!

I would love to be CD5 buddies honey and really wish you get a nice jiocy and extreeeeemely sticky pronto!!!!

 

[BeautifulD]

Wow loving the PMA!! Just wanted to say good luck to u hun and big squishy hugs xx

 

[Tina_TTC2]

Thank you everyone! I started using the Ovulation monitor this morning - and it was actually so relieving to be actually focusing on something positive for a change - the pregnancy was so stressful because I knew it wasn't right - so I lived on the edge for for a month. I'm ready to begin anew - and I feel VERY strongly that things will go better the next time. I'm taking my vitamins regularly, trying to eat a bit healthier - and while i know these things didn't cause my M/C - I will feel better mentally knowing that I am dong what I can to keep the next pregnancy as healthy as can be...

HURRAY!! just waiting for the little blocks on the monitor to creep up - for fertile indicators

YEAH!!

 

[pumpkin86]

I know exactly what you mean..I had the same feeling couple months ago..when I went to have a blood work to assure that I no longer carry an ectopic and my Dh was like" yaay hun the result is negative!!"..and people kept staring at us ..but that was the happiest news I've ever had since those dark days!!

 

[GreatfulMummy]

Sorry for your loss. lOTS OF for your next cycle x

 

[Tattoo]

I'm sorry to hear about your loss, but good news that your body's sorted itself back out!
Lets hope the next test is the biggest, fattest positive!