Urgh, I don't even know what to say. I'm just home alone and my head's spinning.
My ex and I split up over a month ago, and a couple of weeks ago I found out he'd been cheating on me since April. He denies it, obviously, thinks cause he waited til we broke up to go public, he's done nothing wrong. And I know how lucky I am that he wants to be there for LO and sees him regularly, I cannot get past the hurt. We spent a couple of weeks arguing lots, I got more and more angry and frustrated but decided I didn't want to fight him anymore, it wasn't good for our son. So now he thinks all is okay, he even asked me to loan him money today! I'm trying really, REALLY hard to be civil but all I want to do is scream and shout and swear and hell, even hurt him. Everyone around me tells me to let it go, it's really common for guys to do this after a baby is born blah blah blah, but it feels like they're excusing him. No one seems to understand how hurt and angry I am, not just at what he's done but that there's no consequence at all. He gets to go on and be happy in his new relationship and no one's ever said to him, "Bit sh!t what you did." I'm not perfect, I was difficult towards the end, cause I knew something wasn't right, but he was in the wrong and everyone seems to think this is okay?!
I really don't want to be fighting anymore but I can't see any other way to get past this pain without him admitting what he's done to me. He refuses to acknowledge his wrongs and tries to pass me off as paranoid, but he doesn't know just how much I know. How the hell am I meant to get over this?!
My ex and I split up over a month ago, and a couple of weeks ago I found out he'd been cheating on me since April. He denies it, obviously, thinks cause he waited til we broke up to go public, he's done nothing wrong. And I know how lucky I am that he wants to be there for LO and sees him regularly, I cannot get past the hurt. We spent a couple of weeks arguing lots, I got more and more angry and frustrated but decided I didn't want to fight him anymore, it wasn't good for our son. So now he thinks all is okay, he even asked me to loan him money today! I'm trying really, REALLY hard to be civil but all I want to do is scream and shout and swear and hell, even hurt him. Everyone around me tells me to let it go, it's really common for guys to do this after a baby is born blah blah blah, but it feels like they're excusing him. No one seems to understand how hurt and angry I am, not just at what he's done but that there's no consequence at all. He gets to go on and be happy in his new relationship and no one's ever said to him, "Bit sh!t what you did." I'm not perfect, I was difficult towards the end, cause I knew something wasn't right, but he was in the wrong and everyone seems to think this is okay?!
I really don't want to be fighting anymore but I can't see any other way to get past this pain without him admitting what he's done to me. He refuses to acknowledge his wrongs and tries to pass me off as paranoid, but he doesn't know just how much I know. How the hell am I meant to get over this?!
i hope it gets easier for you hun, and me ! I hate feeling this way, good luck x
