I think I'm about to have a miscarriage

[MamaBerry]

I had blood work done on Monday and my hcg was 57 (4w1d), had another draw today and it only went up to 60. I'm pretty sure this means I'm about to miscarry. Will go in on Friday for another draw but I'm not holding out much hope. I had a miscarriage last year at the end of May, and this second one is just going to kill me.

I really don't know why I'm writing, I'm just feeling so sad and lost. I don't get pregnant easily, in the 10 years we've been trying this has only been my 3rd pregnancy. I feel very blessed to have my son, but lately he's been asking for a little brother or sister, and its just breaking my heart because I don't think I'll ever be able to give him that.

I look at all my close girlfriends, who all have 2 children, and I just feel envy. They all became pregnant easily, and have never gone through what I have. Not that I want them to, but they don't understand so I feel like I can't talk to them about it. So to add to all the bad feelings currently going through me I also feel super alone.

Anyway sorry for the long post and for anyone who reads this, thanks for listening. I just needed to get some of my feelings out.

 

[ds0910]

I don't talk to anyone about my 2 losses. Miscarriages are very isolating, unfortunately. Don't lose hope. TRY to keep reminding yourself what will be will be. Hopefully you will get surprising good news Friday. If not, keep your head up and remember it's not your fault and when you feel yourself getting upset about your MCs go hug your little boy extra tight. That's what I do and it seems to help a little

 

[BrendaJ]

MamaBerry, I won't tell you not to despair, I know the heartache. But I truly hope that there's an awesome turn of event for you and you get what you are wishing for.

As for me, I'm only 6+3 weeks along and experienced brown spotting yesterday. This morning I noticed a slight brown hue on my TP and am worried to death. I called my doctor and am waiting for a returned phone call. I hope we both get some good news.

I too have only 1 son and have had an extremely hard time conceiving, I'm so scared.

 

[BrendaJ]

How are you today MamaBerry?

My doctor decided to see me for a check up yesterday and appeased my worries. I had an intravaginal U/S and was able to see my little bean and hb. I'm still worried because she wants to monitor me closely and will return in 2 weeks for another u/s. I'm afraid of getting heartbroken...

I'm praying all is well with you