I want my boy back.....

[jacky24]

Me and OH had a huge fight last night and i actually for the first time since we lost CJ told him things he didn't know how i felt.

I miss feeling my baby move in my belly, i would give anything to not wake up from my dreams of still having CJ fit and healthy and kicking in my belly. I am missing a piece of my heart as i lost it the day CJ died.

I told my OH how am i as a mother who had her child for 37weeks inside of me cope with never being able to have seen or have held my child... Don't get me wrong i was in a coma for 3days after giving birth via c-section but will i ever be able to get over the fact that i would never ever know what my child looked like or felt like

 

[miel]

 

[Zoya]

 

[Suz]

 

[NeyNey]

 

[cupcake]

im so sorry for your loss, i wish that there were words to comfort you.

 

[Sweetie]

 

[cherylanne]

I am so so sorry for what you have lost. It is good that your OH now knows how you feel and perhaps it will help for you to talk to him.

I can't imagine the pain your going through, the loss not only of your child but of the future you may have had must be intense.

I wish you every happiness for the future and i hope your pain eases xx

 

[Blob]

 

[Elli21]

Im so sorry for ur loss hun...

 

[SJK]

am so sorry xx

 

[Rah]

I know that things are so difficult after the loss of angels my best friend in the whole world lost her baby Olivia at 37+4
I understand that that the pain is too much sometimes and your going to have bad days etc and take them out on OH as he is the closest to you. You grieve at different stages too, which does not help, one day you could be having a good day and he a bad one and then vice versa. It's hard also trying to be supportive when you feel so shattered, heartbroken and full of pain yourself but i think its a really good thing that you have told him how you feel and i hope it will help you to work though this together as he can understand more now than he did before

Stick with things hun, I know it is hard, but hopefully things will become gentler one day.

Really hope that you sort things out. Here for you anytime at all.

 

[Rumpskin]

I cannot imagine how you are feeling darling. Sending you some hugs

Lots of love xxx

 

[Uvlollypop]

hugs

 

[polo_princess]

 

[lorrilou]

 

[Sarah1987]

I am so sorry for your loss

 

[chefamy1122]

I'm really sorry

 

[Freya]

I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

Even though you had a fall out with OH - at least you've been telling him how you feel, like all the really intimate details he may not have realised you had been thinking about and missing. He needed to know hun.

Sending you hugs and bright blessings xxxx

 

[todteach]