I want to Give Up

[jaytee146]

After years of finally waiting.. I get into nursing school and i discover I was expecting.. I was so Ill in the first trimester I had to withdraw. the instrutor was so nice she placed me on the list to start this spring... I took out a ton of student loans.. mainly after my father passed to honestly help out with bills. Well school started this spring and guess what... I'm not finishing up with my class... instead i'm making minimal wage trying to provide for my daughter. FOB has never met her and on top of that I discovered I have TONS OF LOANS DUE. with no way to pay them... I don't want her to grow up how i did nor be in the same school district.. how can I provide her anytype of life whenI can't even afford to buy grocery's, gas, and we're still living with my mother. she has a freaking looser for a mother.

what was I thinking by having a baby. It's so obvious i can't care for her. I don't know how to get out of debt and get a place i feel safe raising her. A place that she can be proud of and an education that will afford her the oppurtinites I didn't have

If i knew it wouldn't hurt so bad...... I'd give her to a family that deserves a wonderful kid.. but me being selfish I won't give her to anyone who could give her the world I can't

WHAT's WRONG WITH ME!

 

[Mammy2Joojx]

nothings wrong with you hun! I know you want the best for your daughter! But thats being there for her! Doesn't matter whether you're living with your parents, surviving on little money, aslong as she has you there thats whats best for her. Have you got any support from your family? Or any extra support through your school/college?

 

[george83]

nothing is wrong with you your a fantastic mum and that's obvious for everybody to see. i wanted my baby to have a more secure and better financial upbringing than i had i don't see how i can do that now but all that matters is you love your baby. if your really worried about your debts you have to be upfront and speak to people, they will help you but you have to make that first move. I'm in the mess i'm in now becuase my 'husband' buried his head in the sand for too long and now we're flat broke.

your baby will know you love them and that's worth more than anything

 

[emlubu]

Number 1) u keep her safe and she is loved?? Yes so your doing a brill job!!!

Money yes - its a worry but go to dept advise ppl and get help do minimal payments on all like in uk £5 a week I pay and I've been doing so for a while and just are listed they r being to go down nicely

U may not be able to buy the latest gear but you will be showing the baby a way to live properly with respect n morals!!! Keep going. Doesn't matter who u live with as long as u t both safe secure and loved


Chin up it will get better.
I'm a nurse and the training is a challenge but don't beat itself up
Over it of u can't achieve it yet. Motherhood is full time
Job n worthwhile and rewarding!!!

 

[jaytee146]

thanks for the responses guy's. i'm truly grateful my lo is healthy and happy. i guess i'm just scared. i know i'm not the only one but i feel like i'm in tim rain and i Can.t see a break for the sun to shine. i know it will get better i just have to keep pushing

 

[emlubu]

Come on be positive and eventually positive will happy. Enjoy your baby and be glad to have her ...