im back from hospital with results..

[x_Rainbow_x]

well im back......


they was running late i got on there she went threw all my history and i joked i new what it was and said i bet i have sticky blood eh... she said no your blood is perfect but we have found the cause...

the problem lies in me....

i have unbalanced chormasones which means 1 chromasone broke and attached to others.
this prevents me from a healthy pregnancy... infect it prevents me from a healthy child.
i was born with this. it doesnt affect me.

the chances of having a normal pregnancy are very very low.. if i can get past 14 weeks thats when it looks good. except there is a possability baby will be disabled. id have 2 have an amnio 2 check.

i have 2 see a genetics specialist so they can check on me and also tests out things on me.. so basically im a fuking guinepig!!

i have basically been told i cant have kids...

the one thing a woman is ment to be able 2 do and i cant..

im faulty and i seriously feel like curling up and dying.

i dont ever wanna think of never having a child but i may have 2.. i cnt bare 2 think of adoption or anything..

im a mess.

 

[babezone]

aww hunny im sorry to hear its not good news babe xxx

 

[JayleighAnn]

Omg for you babe, I really cant say anything that would make you feel better, but I will be thinking of you.

xx

 

[doctordeesmrs]

Try and stay positive hun however difficult it may be. We are all here for you.

 

[FEDup1981]

 

[cherylanne]

Oh no Tracie babe. I am so sorry to hear this, i know there is nothing i can say to make you feel better. I understand that you must feel like shite that is totally understandable, i really don't know what to say. PM me if you want to chat xxx

 

[tink]

so so so so sorry Tracie,i am lost for words...........

 

[wantababybump]

So sorry to hear this tracie

 

[ricschick]

im so sorry!!!

 

[redberry3]

I am so sorry to read this.

 

[didda]

So sorry to hear this xx

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

y did this get moved? i put it in genral chat coz not everyone comes in here

 

[DaisyDuke]

I really don't know what to say, i truely am sorry, but i wanted to give u a big

 

[maz]

I am soo sorry to hear this hun. I know there is nothing i can say to take away your pain but wanted to give you a huge -

 

[Tishimouse]

Tracie,

It's so heart breaking to read your news and I simply cannot imagine what you are going through. Nor can I imagine what you have been through. So many wonderful people never have children, it's incredibly unfair and difficult to comprehend, but there is a tiny glimmer of hope somewhere in there that you 'might'. It's a good thing to know the cause, no matter how difficult it is to accept and having a tiny glimmer of hope is at least having something rather than nothing.

It is worth facing reality to save your sanity but also worth trying as giving up now would be a tragedy if you were to be one of the lucky ones.

I'm not sure if it will make you feel better, but I think I have actually left it too late to try as my eggs are depleted and well, a bit 'old' I think as I am 46 and have high FSH. I'm going through a very slow process of realising my chances may have passed me by and have sort of given up if I'm honest. I've taken a break from everything to try and concentrate on life outside ttc as I think it's important to remember who you are and how much life has to offer without a baby. Even writing that is hard, but I hope it will in some small way help to know that others are facing 'reality' checks but hanging on to that glimmer of hope just the same.

My heart goes out to you and I really hope you are OK. Look after each other and hopefully you will either achieve your miracle and/or find some peace of mind to help you through your latest news.

Genuine coming your way.

 

[sam's mum]

I'm so sorry x

 

[NickyT75]

Oh Tracie hun im so sorry to hear this dont know what to say other than so sorry xx

 

[princess_vix]

I'm sorry Tracie....you are not a failure.. hugs to you

 

[vickie83]

Oh Tracie I'm so sorry to hear this. I don't think anything I can say will make any difference to the way yo feel, just know you are in my thoughts

 

[x-amy-x]