I'm feeling really alone all of a sudden :(

[LouiseB]

I have found that i have become quite dependant on a forum community for support and friendship since i started actively ttc which was about 4 month ago and i've been through so many ups and downs during that time.

I was just about coping with people coming to ttc and leaving for Tri 1 without me but since i found out that i will probably need IVF to conceive due to my husbands sperm quality, i feel so alone and sad.

I'm in that middle ground where we know that something is wrong, but we don't know the extent of it and aren't close the starting treatment.

The forum i use is too small to have an active assisted fertility section and i suddenly find myself feeling like i don't belong in the ttc section.

I don't really have anything to say about IVF, but i don't feel like i can chat on about OV and bd'in and AF because it suddenly feels so trivial. I'm happy when people get BFPs, but it makes me feel sad because part fo me genuinely feels that it might never happen. Not to be defeatist, but a realist.

I wish i could just close down the internet, but i miss the social aspect of ttc.

Is anyone else in limbo like me? I feel like i'm neither here nor there.

 

[camishantel]

aww hun I'm not but didn't want to read and run I'm sorry you feel alone right now

 

[Kiki09]

I have days like that, all the people that were TTC with me now have babies or about to give birth, whilst i am still hoping and praying it might be my turn soon.. i know what problems I have re conceiving but does not make it any easier, we are now on the road to IVF but only just, i have no idea what the timescale is etc and again there is no guarantee it will work but I am trying to keep the faith that it will happen one day for us.

its normal to feel like you do, this journey is such an emotional rollercoaster that takes a lot out of you in every sense, but at least with this forum you are amongst others that are going through and feeling the way you do..

 

[dreamofabean]

I am hun.
I dont ovulate without clomid. Finally when i was on 100mg i ovulated...whoop! Only for dh's sa to come back with heartbreaking results
They are repeating it in ec so until 30th dec when we meet with our specialist we're in limbo too x

 

[Bex84]

Hi, Im sorry you are feeling so down. Me and my husband are in the same position, he has a low sperm count and we are seeing fertility specialists at the moment to decide on treatment.
I know how you feel with getting down, all my friends seem to be getting pregnant and boasting how easy it is for them (they dont know we are seeing doctor) and I feel really low about it.
I went to hospital today for my HyCosy and they couldent even manage to insert the cathater into my uterus so I had all the pain without them being able to do the test (lots of tears after that). If you ever need someone to talk to private message me. We will get are BFP one day. I have my fingers crossed for you that it will be soon

 

[jappygirl76]

Hey there,

Don't feel alone. You are definitely not alone on this journey. My DH and I are currently undergoing all the tests to figure out why we are not getting preggers. The only test that has come back abnormal was his SA, morphology.

I guess the next step is IUI, but we do not have any time frame of when we are going to start this process or if it is even an option for us. Needless to say, we are also at that point where we are in limbo.

If you feel like you just need to vent or get some things off your chest just send me a PM. The main thing is, try not to feel alone of sad, because there are many of us out here to talk to and we know exactly how you feel.



Keep in touch!

 

[LouiseB]

Thanks ladies, i really appreciate you kind words

I feel like i'm really struggling with the moral implications of IVF too - i know it might seem silly in this day and age especially when i'm not even very religious but it's just something that i'm trying to come to terms with too.

 

[FutureMommie]

Thanks ladies, i really appreciate you kind words

I feel like i'm really struggling with the moral implications of IVF too - i know it might seem silly in this day and age especially when i'm not even very religious but it's just something that i'm trying to come to terms with too.

I totally understand what you mean, I struggled with it too but more from a relegious standpoint but then I realized that sometimes this is the way that God means for us to conceive, he places those people in my life to help me along the way. I know you aren't religious so maybe it would help if you just did a little more research or maybe just talk to your dr about it more.

 

[vicki.mummy]

i have days like that too - my partner (wife) and I are on the waiting list for IUI, we don't have fertility issues (as far as i'm aware) but we're also not TTC, it's a difficult one hun. At least you know there are others in the same/similar situations. I guess you should just join us here, we're all different but everyone gives great advice

 

[MiBebe]

I understand where you are coming from

I too, just like you, rely on forums to vent out my frustrations and share my journey. Except for 3 friends, nobody else knows what's going on in my life. Not even my sister (who is like my best friends) or my mom. I talk to my DH about it, but its still not the same. I feel like people won't understand or that they will judge me.

Everybody around me is either pregnant or just had a baby... my TTC friends are almost all pregnant. I turn it around though and say to myself "Thank you God because if you do it for them, you'll do it for me" and I see it as I'm one day closer to getting my little bambino.

Hang in there!!! Thank God for these forums. 14 years ago when I was TTC (took me 2 years to conceive my DD) these forums did not exist and I was really feeling alone in the world. At least we have a place to share our stories.

 

[honeybee2]

i feel like this.

I was in TTc for 16 months and all my buddies left- one even came back for 2 weeks and left with another pregnancy. I felt really lonely so I never go in there anymore. Ive built a good rappor with the girlies in bride and beyond, it is very frustrating, im sorry you feel like this but your not on your own!