I'm not coping

[AbbynChloe]

And told Chloe's dad to come and take her, otherwise I would contact social services.......

i am heartbroken

he took her yesterday

and now he wont speak to me

 

[Mammy2Joojx]

why can't you cope hun? Xx

 

[kirst1805]

Abby, what's happened hun? What makes you feel you can't cope?
Xxx

 

[Laura2919]

Hun what is wrong?? You should never have to feel like that.. Let's hope whatever it is it can be worked on. xxxx

 

[AbbynChloe]

I just think i have been letting things get on top of me for a while, and not venting. so had a huge meltdown yesterday, and sent Chloe off to her dad- he wasn't doing anything to help me - and een her like twice over the last 7 months.

he didn't hlpt me at all when I was in hospital for 8 days right before xmas. I'd just been feeling really lonely and depressed.

I had a good chat with my best friend today, then spoke with Ed and asked him nicely to bring Chloe home.

I was horrified to find out he had taken Chloe all the way to cheltenham to stay with his brother - this is the man who threatened to shoot me if i didn't terminate my pregnancy with Chloe.

I feel physically sick knowing he's playing puzzles with her.....

 

[Laura2919]

Is he bringing her home? It's not wrong to feel fed up, lonely, upset you do everything on your own and he is hardly any help..

You'll get through it hun.. Do you think maybe talking to a professional about how yor feeling would benefit you?

I'm always here if you need a chatter

 

[peapod11]

i hope ur ok, if u need a chat im here xx

 

[AbbynChloe]

Thank you girls. I have an appointment with my doc tomorrow - i think i need to up my anti depressants and maybe try a counselling
or something.

I just got to the point where everything was too much, he was draining me emotionally, i was angry, working lots and just struggling.

its rubbish that it seems i'd be better off not working than working, financially everything is so hard!! but i know i'd only be more depressed if i didn't work, Chloe and work feel like they are the only good bits in my life at the moment.

He's bringing her home tonight - i'll collect her from the train station in a couple of hours - really can't wait to see her lol been a little over 24hr.

I think i need to come back here and start venting and chatting again missed the support here xxx

 

[Rhio92]

Hope it goes ok with the doctor... Sounds like you need someone to talk to? Like some sort of counselling x

 

[Laura2919]

I know it helps talking here doesn't it? I just wish it was more private in here but this is public its hard but you will see a light at the end of the tunnel, hope your dr can help.

Do you get nights away from Chloe? Maybe go for dinner with some friends or try and meet some new people. Sounds like you need to find who you are as well as working and being a mummy..

 

[AbbynChloe]

I'm really lucky, Chloe is such a peaceful child, she really looks after me. - but no i don't really get nights off - i jut don't have people close enough that i trust I think there is a lot more going on, as I've become almost a recluse, i only go out for work - and this might sound ridiculous, but i can't bear some of my friends - especially those who still hang out with Chloe's dad

I know i just gotta work something out, I will really look into the counselling and just trying to take a massive chill pill! xxxxxx

and talk here a lot more xxxx

 

[AbbynChloe]

I'm really lucky, Chloe is such a peaceful child, she really looks after me. - but no i don't really get nights off - i jut don't have people close enough that i trust I think there is a lot more going on, as I've become almost a recluse, i only go out for work - and this might sound ridiculous, but i can't bear some of my friends - especially those who still hang out with Chloe's dad

I know i just gotta work something out, I will really look into the counselling and just trying to take a massive chill pill! xxxxxx

and talk here a lot more xxxx

 

[kirst1805]

Hope everything goes ok with your doc. I'm not much help but I'm happy to swap numbers or something so you can have a rant or anything if you need it hun.

Xxx

 

[dustbunny]

I think it is a positive step going to your doctor tomorrow. Maybe see if you can go to a local counsellor as well as having your meds increased, that way not only will you be able to talk to someone completely unrelated to the situation but also someone impartial and more importantly someone who you would have to travel to see. It would be something else to do, another process, other than your LO and work.
Maybe also have a 'cleanse' of your friends, get rid of the ones you don't so much trust as that would take the pressure off of that situation. And like PP have said, try and make some you time... even if its just to chill out in the bath or something.

We are all here if you ever want a good moan/rant/bitch etc

 

[Mammy2Joojx]

don't ever feel like you're on your own, you have everyone on this sites support & i know its not the same as IRL support but, we're always here for you to vent to/let steam off to & nobody judges glad chloe is coming home hun, she'll wanna make sure her mummys okay let us know what the GP says won't you? X x

 

[AbbynChloe]

thank you all, really you've made me tear up - i feel so silly sometimes.

Yes i will let you know what the doc suggests, again luck to have a really lovely GP.

Kirsty thank you! what have you got planned for Gemma and My birthday?? lol xxxxx

 

[teal]

Massive hugs I hope all goes well with the dr tomorrow xx

 

[kirst1805]

Nothing too exciting, lol, she's got a thing about fish at the min, so we are taking her off on a train to visit a sea life centre.. And just making a day of being out and about.
As for your bday.. I dunno, what do you fancy doing?

XX

 

[Laura2919]

I just brought the twins some fish. They are obssessed because because of the bubble guppies living under water or whatever they said..

I'm here if you need a chat and I'm on FB and twitter too if you are

 

[angelpkj]

aww you need force yourself to go to playgroups and make friends it is so so hard but its only gunna be awkward n that for the first time then after that the ice is broken

i know what you mean about having friends who are still fobs mate,luckily mine all seemed to show their true feelings and colours and they all picked between me and fob so made it easier for me ha