Well I have spoken to the doc this am, he asked if I wanted to go see him, but I said just reassurance on the phone is ok
(they have a weird thing here were you call the docs to make an appointment for them to call you, they then speak to you over the phone, then they decide whether its worth you going in to see them!!)
He asked whats been happening, so I explained everything as best as I could, and then said about my op the previous week, but the fact I had had a neg a week or so before, he asked loads details, and said it does sound like a miscarriage, he said he could do blood tests to confirm or if Im happy to just leave it then that would be fine, but now he knows that hubby and I are ttc he wants me to go see him in next couple weeks,
I asked if it was the g,a that could have caused this, he said he couldnt say for certain, but its most likly it was, because of the timing and the faint + on saturday, going by my dates he said I would have been around 4/5 weeks
I feel like sh*t now, as when I had op, the nurse said it could cause a m/c but I was adament that I wasnt, but in my heart I wasnt 100% sure, I had a feeling the neg was wrong, but no me being me ignored it and as a result I know have lost it
hubbys still being no help, says it doesnt matter and we can just try again, whats annoying me with him, is he just sees it as a something that wasnt life, so is throwawayable hence the toenail comparrison, this is what he said....
Hun, dont be upset about it, its not like it was anything there anyway, I mean its a bit like me cutting my toenail, its just a part of me that I cut my toenails then I throw them in the bin, its part of me and its grown on me, but it doesnt mean it feels anything orI feel anything
Im still tryin to work that one out but anyhoos!
On a good note, I brough my self a present to cheer myself up this am, which I am absoloty bouncing about (talk about mixed emotions) and I used hubbys credit card to pay for it oopsie sorry hun dont quite know how it jumped from the drawer to my hand oh and the £80 spent, nah wasnt me!!!!