cluckymumof5
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Sorry ladies I need to vent. Just did a pregnancy test and another BFN. This is our 10th month (and 13th cycle) of TTC after having my tubal ligation reversed and I'm fast losing hope of every getting a BFP. I'm lost as to why it's just not happening for us. I chart, I use OPK's, we BD frantically all the way through my fertile period, I raise my butt after BD'ing to help them swim up, I'm taking a shit load of vitamins (B6, COQ10, prenatal vitamins) and still nothing! I never had problems falling pregnant in my 20's and I never realised it would be this hard in my late 30's.
My entire life is ruled by TTC and despite many attempts to just relax and not worry about it I find myself continually going back to the half neurotic woman that is ruled by peeing on sticks. Every month my life runs like this:
AF arrives. Big cry, followed by anger that we failed again, then despair that it will never happen, then acceptance and hope for a new month.
Start OPK's around day 6 so I don't miss my surge. Temping the entire time and jumping DP if my temp looks like it's going to nose dive (just in case by some miracle ovulation moves forward a week.
Lines start to appear of OPK. BD furiously for 5 days till both DP and I are over it and just wanting to go to bed to sleep. Only letting up once I know 4 days have passed since my positive OPK.
Ovulation till AF. Constantly checking every little sign I have. Is this an EPS. Google then find out it's not but convince myself it is and no-body else has experienced this before.
8DPO till AF shows up. Constant testing then over analysing every negative test. Holding it at every angle, shining my iPhone torch on it incase I missed the line, wandering around the backyard like a moron trying to find the best sunlight incase I missed the line, then finally giving up and accepting that its a negative and we're out again.
Af shows up. Back to the top again.
I've been to my local GP who just shakes her head and doesn't know why we haven't fallen pregnant. I've seen an OBGYN who specialising in IVF so obviously was quite quick to tell me because of my age (37) that time is not on my side so IVF will be our only option. I just don't know what to do anymore. DP is not keen on doing IVF at all and thinks that it will happen so don't stress. I'm not keen on it either to be honest.
How do you ladies keep going month after month and not lose hope?
My entire life is ruled by TTC and despite many attempts to just relax and not worry about it I find myself continually going back to the half neurotic woman that is ruled by peeing on sticks. Every month my life runs like this:
AF arrives. Big cry, followed by anger that we failed again, then despair that it will never happen, then acceptance and hope for a new month.
Start OPK's around day 6 so I don't miss my surge. Temping the entire time and jumping DP if my temp looks like it's going to nose dive (just in case by some miracle ovulation moves forward a week.
Lines start to appear of OPK. BD furiously for 5 days till both DP and I are over it and just wanting to go to bed to sleep. Only letting up once I know 4 days have passed since my positive OPK.
Ovulation till AF. Constantly checking every little sign I have. Is this an EPS. Google then find out it's not but convince myself it is and no-body else has experienced this before.
8DPO till AF shows up. Constant testing then over analysing every negative test. Holding it at every angle, shining my iPhone torch on it incase I missed the line, wandering around the backyard like a moron trying to find the best sunlight incase I missed the line, then finally giving up and accepting that its a negative and we're out again.
Af shows up. Back to the top again.
I've been to my local GP who just shakes her head and doesn't know why we haven't fallen pregnant. I've seen an OBGYN who specialising in IVF so obviously was quite quick to tell me because of my age (37) that time is not on my side so IVF will be our only option. I just don't know what to do anymore. DP is not keen on doing IVF at all and thinks that it will happen so don't stress. I'm not keen on it either to be honest.
How do you ladies keep going month after month and not lose hope?