Im so angry

Wishfull

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Hello ladies

Im so angry at the world. Iv been snapping at my OH and people who have done nothing wrong. They look at me like im crazy which i most possibly am these days. I had m/c 23rd oct. And its only now im getting angry. OH wasnt there for me at all through the pregnancy or the m/c.

I hate the world. Why would anyone allow such a thing to happen. I want my baby. I should be 15 weeks tomo. I try my very hardest to not think of things like how far i should be along and i also try my hardest not to think about my baby. Though i do every day. I have the worst nightmares.
I cant forgive myself for when i was having the m/c that after seeing my baby i flushed. I didnt know what to do i was alone and in shock and didnt really comprehend what i was doing. Now i still dont know what i would have done with the baby. I hate myself my life and everything.

Sorry for ranting and sounding like im a cold hearted person. But its just all catching up with me. I know that being angry is a part of the greiving. But it still doesnt fill the whole in my life or stop the pain in my heart.

Take care ladies hope you are all well.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
Hun please dont beat yourself up for grieving.. i had my m/c on 8th oct and i still feel rotten about it. I keep on dreaming about pregnant people and babies..then i dream about my baby dying or bleeding to death. Its awful and i wouldnt wish it on anyone. It doesnt help when you think your doing OK but then those dreams put you back to square one...

I seem to find myself angry at everyone..esp preg women (there are 3 in my office, you will prob see my rant a few posts down) it makes me sooo mad that people can just have a child, when its the one thing i cant have.

Please pm if you want to chat? Xxx:hugs:
 
hunny u do not need to apologise for anthing. an awful thing has happened to you and you are grieving for your baby. it is normal to feel anger and even hatred. as for flushing, dont beat yourself up about it. you were in shock and im sure everyone understands that you didnt fully realise the repercussions of what you did, like you said, you were alone and understandably scared. when your baby flushed away it wasnt really there anymore was it, its spirit had moved on andwill stay forever in your heart so please dont focus on that part. focus on the fact that you need to grieve and you need to forgive yourself. i think you should talk to your oh, as hard as it may be, maybe not showing his feelings is his way of grieving. bottling it up will only make you both feel worse. im sorry if ive been no use and im sorry for your loss. please be strong. u can talk to me whenever you neet to hun x
 
sweetheart i feel just the same way u do but do u know what keeps me sane? chatting over her with all u guys! i feel so good chatting with other women, i feel a sense of release when i congratulate other women on their bfp cos i know deep down that they will do same for me when i get mine, ive read some stories here that makes me just want to weep, and sometimes i feel my situation is trivial, im a christian so sometimes i just read my bible and pray! what am i trying to say? try to find an avenue to release the tension in u. im sorry for ur loss and i hope u feel better soonest love!
 
Hi, i had my miscarriage on 6th November, I was over 8 weeks, me and my husband were devatsed. I understand totally how you feel, all i can think about now is getting pregnant and everywhere i look there's babies, pregnant women, adverts with babies, nappies and pregnancy tests. It drives me crazy and all im doing is crying. I've gone back to work as soon as i could and the girls in the office are helping me and taking my mind off things. I am trying again now, even though i only miscarried 2 weeks ago, i cannot wait for another period it will drive me crazy. My friend text me last Sunday (9 days after i miscarried) and told me she was 4 weeks pregnant. I was so angry, i smashed up my living room and cried all night in my husband's arms. I have never felt pain like i have these last 2 weeks and would never wish this upon anyone. I am just desperate for a baby and a family and it seems so unfair I lost it.
Just want you to know that its a hard enough time without beating yourself up - there are no rules to this so deal with it the best way you can. I am trying to stay positive and with christmas coming up, im trying to focus on that, but its hard. I am sending you a cyber hug and hoping that you feel better soon. Look after your self.

Babydust to you all XxX
 
i know its so hard i had a m/c on oct 30th, this was my 2nd m/c i could just scream all day long, but we have to be strong, i know it hurts but we will all get there one day xxxxxxxx were all here for each other always xxxxxxx
 
I had a m/c on Nov 16th and it has been absolutely devastating. I was 6w3d. Went back to work Tuesday and things were getting easier to deal with ... then last night and today seem worse than ever! I am weepy and angry and depressed and wondering if I could have done something differently.

It's normal to be upset. There is nothing wrong with you. Let yourself grieve and it will be okay.

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You and I were roughly at the same stage - I would have been 15 weeks tomorrow.

My heart goes out to you xxxxxxxx
 
Please dont beat yourself up for feeling like this. You are so entitled to feel like this and you have to let yourself grieve in your own time. Sometimes anger is just self-protection. Its not fair, none of this which has happened to anyone is fair and i am so sorry.

Please dont give up hope. Things will get better with time i promise. :hugs:
 
iwould have been 14 weeks monday, everyone grieves differently so dont be hard on yourself,you just concentrate on looking after you for a while,it is not something anyone can understand unless they have been there, so sorry your feeling so bad, look after yourself and i think your coping extremley well and have handled thinks great.

x
 
Wishfull

I know when I lost my 2 I was 7-8 weeks with one and 15 weeks with the other..all i wanted was my babies back.i was so mad at the world...I think i told everyone in my path off for weeks..i went and saw a lady (she speaks to your gaurdian angels) and she gave me some advice. She told me (I never told her i lost 2) that i should go buy 2 cheap roses, cut the stems and put them in water, wait5 hours and go back and name them and say all i need to say to the roses, then she said wait 12-24 hours and you will see a difference and a change and feel much better..i swore she was nuts..but i did it i needed something as i couldnt go on how i was

Well i went back and my $1.00 roses were the biggest nicest roses i have ever seen..the roses lived for 3 weeks which i was amazed and after I did that and through those weeks i felt much better...i still and always think of the 2 i lost but what she got me to do gave me a sense of peace..

I know your angry, upset and you have every right to rant and rave and be right pissed off!! I just wanted to share with you something that helped me get through my rough time as it felt like nothing would ever get me through it.

I was all alone for the first it happened in the tub and i sat there and cried for over an hour and had no idea what to do..finally my bf came home and took me to the hospital..it was the worst night ever the staff were so mean and didnt care what i was going through...

I hope this helps, and that you take care of yourself...grieve as much as you want

take care
 
I get angry too. My MC was back in August and I still get angry. It is perfectly normal. I'm sorry your going through this. I really wish you luck in TTC. :hugs:
 

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