Hello ladies
Im so angry at the world. Iv been snapping at my OH and people who have done nothing wrong. They look at me like im crazy which i most possibly am these days. I had m/c 23rd oct. And its only now im getting angry. OH wasnt there for me at all through the pregnancy or the m/c.
I hate the world. Why would anyone allow such a thing to happen. I want my baby. I should be 15 weeks tomo. I try my very hardest to not think of things like how far i should be along and i also try my hardest not to think about my baby. Though i do every day. I have the worst nightmares.
I cant forgive myself for when i was having the m/c that after seeing my baby i flushed. I didnt know what to do i was alone and in shock and didnt really comprehend what i was doing. Now i still dont know what i would have done with the baby. I hate myself my life and everything.
Sorry for ranting and sounding like im a cold hearted person. But its just all catching up with me. I know that being angry is a part of the greiving. But it still doesnt fill the whole in my life or stop the pain in my heart.
Take care ladies hope you are all well.
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Im so angry at the world. Iv been snapping at my OH and people who have done nothing wrong. They look at me like im crazy which i most possibly am these days. I had m/c 23rd oct. And its only now im getting angry. OH wasnt there for me at all through the pregnancy or the m/c.
I hate the world. Why would anyone allow such a thing to happen. I want my baby. I should be 15 weeks tomo. I try my very hardest to not think of things like how far i should be along and i also try my hardest not to think about my baby. Though i do every day. I have the worst nightmares.
I cant forgive myself for when i was having the m/c that after seeing my baby i flushed. I didnt know what to do i was alone and in shock and didnt really comprehend what i was doing. Now i still dont know what i would have done with the baby. I hate myself my life and everything.
Sorry for ranting and sounding like im a cold hearted person. But its just all catching up with me. I know that being angry is a part of the greiving. But it still doesnt fill the whole in my life or stop the pain in my heart.
Take care ladies hope you are all well.
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