In painful limbo- MMC vs misdiagnosed miscarriage UPDATE: Missed miscarriage :(

[StillFertile]

I'm supposed to be 9 weeks today. Yesterday was my booking in appointment, and up until then, I had felt reasonably great, considering the nausea and fatigue and boob stuff.

That morning there was just a hint of colour on the TP. So I checked, and it was def vaginal in source. Very pale pinky brown. I didn't tell my OH so as not to alarm him and went off to my appointment.

The midwife did her NHS calculations and put me at 8w2d which was less than my estimate but OK. We did the medical history stuff and she sent me up to the EPAU for them to check my spotting.

I was given a TVU by a student with a midwife in attendance, and they saw only a gestational sac and a yolk sac, no baby, no heartbeat. I was in shock.

She asked me to come back next week and I told me what my options would be if nothing changes, but I was so upset it's all a bit blurry.

I discovered a website about misdiagnosed miscarriages, which gave me a bit of hope since I do have a retroverted uterus and many girls with tilted uteri have problems with early scans. With my first pregnancy, my ultrasound measurements never matched my fundus measurements and were always off my two weeks. So I guess if I had late implantation or late ovulation that it could be possible...........

I only spotted a minute amount yesterday, then nothing till this evening with a tiny bit more. I've not had much nausea and my stomach feels tight, although it could just be worry. My boobs feel back to normal size after being very lush for weeks. It's all very inconclusive and muddled. Everything could be something or nothing and I just cry and cry.

I am 44 and my OH and I have been together for 4 years. We've been seriously TTC for 2, with a couple of chemicals and now this. This pregnancy had felt so strong, so perfect..... I want nothing more than to give this beautiful man a child as he does not have any yet. And to lose this chance so late is heartbreaking beyond words.

I'm praying and trying to stay positive. I'm trying to visualize them finding a heartbeat next week and feeling the relief that this was all a big mix-up. But it's so hard.

Today I prayed that if there is to be a miracle next week I am all for it but if this is a miscarriage then let's get it over with. This not knowing is killing me.

Sorry for the long vent, but we've not told anyone and I have no one else to unload on..... Please pray for us.......

 

[MissMummyMoo]

I am so sorry hun I've never had an experience of this so I can't really comment, but I want you to know I am thinking of you xxxxxx

 

[MightyMom]

I had that exact experience in October. My sonographer said she couldn't see anything and to come back. It made me feel like I had hope. So I went home and Googled it and found the same website you're talking about. And I have a retroverted uterus so I thought "Oh there is hope!" Four weeks later I was getting a D&C.

My advice to you is that you could have a misdiagnosed m/c. It's possible. So until you see spotting or your hcg levels dropping, there is always a chance. But if it wasn't a clear, pretty gestational sac, if it was clotted or irregular, then it is probably a mmc.

The waiting is horrible and of course if it is a m/c you just want it to be done. But you also want to be absolutely sure that it is a m/c so that you don't beat yourself up later about what could have been.

 

[LuckyW]

I am so sorry you're going through this, StillFertile. I was really sad to see your avatar here, I recognize it from Preg Over 35.

 

[cb1]

I'm so sorry your going through this, I've had 3 mmc's now so I know only too well how that waiting period feels. There is still a slim chance that it might be misdiagnosed, and I wish you the best of luck with that, but should it be a mmc then there is a huge amount of support over here. xx

 

[lovewithin]

keeping my fingers crossed for you!

 

[StillFertile]

Thank you all for your kind words. Makes me cry.

This may well be the longest week of my life. My stomach hurts from the stress of it all. And all of a sudden babies are everywhere....

Am I the only one with a mini shrine in their home? I am praying and burning candles and I'm not even slightly religious!

 

[lovewithin]

hey love, u don't need any religion and any institution to mediate between the universe, your baby's soul and you if burnin candles is your way to hit that hot wire, just go ahead

 

[LuckyW]

Am I the only one with a mini shrine in their home? I am praying and burning candles and I'm not even slightly religious!

I'm not religious and I don't have a shrine, but lately I'm often down at the beach having conversations with the sun and the ocean.

***hopeful energy***

 

[Shezza84uk]

I hope this turns out positive for you try to remain hopeful all things are possible including you might have had late ovulation do dates might be off I've got my fingers crossed for you x

 

[StillFertile]

Thanks for the support everyone. The minutes tick by so slowly.....

I keep hearing stories about this happening to other people and all was fine, but there are the other stories as well.

I wish it were Thursday already!

 

[MissMummyMoo]

I know it's easier said than done but please try and think positively will be thinking of you this week x

 

[sleeping bubs]

hey i had a mc last may but kept going bk for scans for 3ks to make sure it took 4wks for them to comfirm that it was a mc before i had a d&c. I am going to epu on tues as i have a lot of bleeding again this pg meant to be 6wk tomorrow thinking i hve mc again 2x in a year

 

[StillFertile]

Thanks Mummymoo!

Sleepingbubs~ Praying this is not a bad outcome again for you.

 

[Leinzlove]

I'm hoping you get a miracle! There is always hope.

Sadly for myself. Here's my story. I had MMC. I went to the Dr. so excited for my first scan. I was suposed to be 8w2d, Feb. 27. However, the scan showed a baby, small sac and no HB. My Dr. said my dates had to be off. I knew they weren't as I'd been TTC for 5 cycles.

I then had HCG drawn and HCG went up, but rose slowly. Dr. said it was probable MC, but not definite. I had hope. That this explained why we didn't see a HB as my level was a low 3300 and it needs to be 5000 to see. So, I hoped that this why we didn't see a HB and it didn't mean there wasn't one. However, the HB should be seen via Vaginal US by 7 weeks.

My numbers kept rising as I waited for my follow up scan... However at 9w1d I started spotting... Dr called at 9w3d on March 6 and said my numbers were still rising. And we couldn't talk D&C until our scan. However, 3 hours later I was so crampy, achy. I took tylenol, laid down for a few minutes. Stood up and naturally passed my baby. It was 8 days after my devastating scan.

My Dr. was never able to diagnose my MC. Not until I passed naturally.

The limbo is awful. However, babies are miracles... There is hope... I hope your story ends with a positive outcome. Thoughts and prayers are with you!

 

[Dani Rose]

I'm going through it too. Seen the heartbeat twice, the last time being 2 weeks ago. A week later I'm spotting, no heartbeat.

Nausea gone, sore/big boobs gone. Fatigue gone.

I'm back in tomo for u/s and have decided to take the meds to drop the hormone (tests still very dark)

Hugs. It's awful x

 

[Leinzlove]

I'm so sorry to hear that Dani Rose.

 

[StillFertile]

I'm sorry for your loss Dani Rose.



I'm still waiting. No more spotting and still feel pregnant. I am very tense and have chewed my bottom lip so much it looks like someone has punched me. 27 hours to go.....

 

[lovewithin]

Stillfertile, i'm keeping my fingers crossed to you and sending a whole lotta love to you and your baby hoping you'll get some miracle news tomorrow!

 

[StillFertile]

Thanks hon!

This board is so supportive and I am so grateful.