becky011
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To begin with I would like to say I am a major drama queen so my birth story will probably sound traumatic
it was for me, but would probably be a walk in the park for other ladies
I am sorry if this story freaks anyone out, and I hope I gave good enough fore warning
. Here we go
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At 40 + 2 days I went to the hairdressers to get pampered in the hope it would coax Baby Bean Holt into the world I had two very strong contractions but nothing more.
That night I felt off, the next morning (Saturday) I went about my usual routine and I noticed my little Bean was not doing his usual riverdance after my bowl of cheerios, I tried a few other tricks but still nothing, I rang the maternity assessment unit and as expected they said to come in to be monitored.
When we got there I was inconsolable I had this overwhelming fear that something was wrong nothing was wrong, but the midwife said she wanted to speak to a consultant as this was the 7th time we had been in with reduced movement, I was not overly worried as I had an anterior placenta.
The consultant came to speak to us and came straight out with I feel it best to induce you we were taken by surprise but agreed, she told us to come back in for monitoring the next day and that I would definitely be induced on the Monday.
That night I cried so much as I had dreamed of having a water birth and I felt everything was going to fast. I soon sorted myself out and decided that it was best for both me and Baby Bean that this was the right thing to do.
We went in on the Sunday morning, they did there usual monitoring and it was noted that my BP and temp was elevated, it was decided there and then that the induction would take place that day . EXCITED!!!
I was taken to the labour ward at 2:00pm and they found my BP and temp was more stable. The midwife carried out the first (of many) internals, she somehow managed to pull my cervix down (which did not hurt much) and to my shock and surprise she broke my waters, and managed to stretch me to two centimetres dilated . I was gutted though as my OH was not there as her had gone to Tesco for supplies (we had been told I would be induced with a pessary and to expect to be in the hospital for a while)
Well oh my god!!! There was water everywhere!!!! It was still coming out when my OH got back 30 minutes later!! and I finally lost my plug WOOOOHOOOO!! . My poor OH looked completely freaked out!! Hehehe!
I had about four very mild contractions but nothing else and the midwife told me they were going to start me on the drip, this was at approx 6:00pm about half hour after my contractions started, I was able to breath through them with my OH rubbing my back, I went for approx 2 hours using just breathing my OH was in shock as he knows what a wuss I am
The pain was getting very intense and my contractions were coming very fast and intense, the midwife literally ordered me to try the gas and air I am too stubborn, well I could have kissed her after my first couple of blasts!!! That stuff is amazing!!
I cant remember the time but I also had some pethidine which was amazing, the pain in my back was making me shake and scream so the pethidine and gas and air were a god send
I was examined again at about 2am . Oh my god when she examined me it brought on the most painful and intense contractions, she found I was 4 cm dilated, my labour was going so slow, they upped the dose and I finally hit the maximum of 9ml.
The contractions were now coming way to quick and intense, I was writhing around in pain that much that I kept dropping my gas and air, and I was punching the bed (the OH made sure he was out of hitting range!!! Hehehe!!)
I was examined again at 3am and I was 5cm dilated, and in absolute agony, I was having 6 long contractions every 10 minutes, my drip was turned down and the midwife asked if I wanted an epidural to which I half growled/screamed NO, about 10 minutes later I sobbed please can I have the epidural I then had to wait nearly 45 minutes as the anesthetist was working her way through the labour ward every woman in there was having one and I was last in the que
She finally came in and was this crazy bouncy little woman with mad curly hair!!! She really made me at ease as I was crying inconsolably as I was scared of having it done .
She began to put in the needle but she hit a blood vessel, I could feel lots of hot liquid running down my back and I thought oh my god is that spinal fluid or blood it was blood ..
The epidural was a god send, I managed to get a little sleep, but I was still feeling pain under my rib, the midwife felt the area and said my little Bean was shoving his feet under there!!! So I continued with the gas and air.
At 7:30am I was examined and I was 9cm dilated!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! Me and my OH were so excited, it was nearly time for us to meet our gorgeous Bean
From out of nowhere, two consultants entered the room and told me there were concerned as my BP and temp were elevating.
I was examined and Bean was found to be back to back I knew all along he was, the pain was horrible!!
It was also found that he had his head back and not tucked down, the Dr attempted to bring his head forward but she could not get him to move, she told me that she would be back to examine me in 1 hour and if nothing had changed then it would be best to have a c-section.
I honestly felt the walls crash in on me, I was crying and felt like an utter failure!!! My OH and the midwife was trying to console me but nothing was helping, I continually refused the c-section and I was still refusing when the consultant returned. She checked my obs and said my temp had continued to rise and that it was getting serious, it was at that point I signed the paperwork, and she told me that my c-section was now an emergency c-section and she rang to tell theatre to cancel all other procedures I was so scared and then they took my OH away from me which made me start to panic and hyperventilate in the corridor, they managed to calm me down, and we continued to theatre.
They wheeled me down to theatre, and I could not stop crying, I began to hyperventilate and it took the theatre team quite a while to calm me down, I soon felt better when they eventually let my OH into the room.
They began the procedure and it felt so weird!!! Then all I heard was wow!!! They lifted our Bean over the screen and oh my god we were gob smacked our little Bean was a he!! I knew it all along, and our little Bean was not so little
He weighed a whopping 9lb 3oz and was 56cm long with a full head of blonde hair, it took them a while to bring him to us, but finally we had our Bean (now named Tristan) we had a couple of cuddles, but then they took him away again while they stitched me up, my temp began to rise so they started iv antibiotics.
I was then taken to recovery, my OH came with me but then went out to use the phone . They wouldnt let him back in due to infection control!!!!! So for the 4 hours they monitored me, my OH was left sitting outside not able to spend the first precious hours with his son!! I was so angry!!!
They finally took me down to the ward, I had my own room which was a god send, but the care I received was what has made this experience so heartbreaking to remember!! During the first night Baby Tristan was crying in the night and I could not reach him, I pressed the nurse call button for help and it took them over half an hour to come by which time he was screaming
I felt very uncomfy down below and asked them if everything was ok as I couldnt sit up to see and they said yes just your pad needs changing . Well the next morning when the lights were turned on I awoke to find I was covered in blood and the sheets were soaked and I was stuck to them!!! It was disgusting!!
They were constantly late with my medication so by the time I had it I was in agony . I was told the next day that I had lost over a litre in blood during the c-section so that I would need to take iron tablets . These were not given to me until I was discharged (on the Thursday).
We are now home and settle and my gorgeous blonde haired, blue eyed boy is two weeks old today
I have had to stop breast feeding as it was too painful physically and emotionally.
I have struggled with my emotions since coming home, thinking and talking about the birth really gets to me I feel like my body let me and my son down, not only could my body not push my baby out, it could no longer sustain breast feeding, my son now has colic due to formula feeding so I do feel like I have let him down!!
I would definitely have more children though, and we are planning on our next one already, so they crappy experience above has not put me off that much
At 40 + 2 days I went to the hairdressers to get pampered in the hope it would coax Baby Bean Holt into the world I had two very strong contractions but nothing more.
That night I felt off, the next morning (Saturday) I went about my usual routine and I noticed my little Bean was not doing his usual riverdance after my bowl of cheerios, I tried a few other tricks but still nothing, I rang the maternity assessment unit and as expected they said to come in to be monitored.
When we got there I was inconsolable I had this overwhelming fear that something was wrong nothing was wrong, but the midwife said she wanted to speak to a consultant as this was the 7th time we had been in with reduced movement, I was not overly worried as I had an anterior placenta.
The consultant came to speak to us and came straight out with I feel it best to induce you we were taken by surprise but agreed, she told us to come back in for monitoring the next day and that I would definitely be induced on the Monday.
That night I cried so much as I had dreamed of having a water birth and I felt everything was going to fast. I soon sorted myself out and decided that it was best for both me and Baby Bean that this was the right thing to do.
We went in on the Sunday morning, they did there usual monitoring and it was noted that my BP and temp was elevated, it was decided there and then that the induction would take place that day . EXCITED!!!
I was taken to the labour ward at 2:00pm and they found my BP and temp was more stable. The midwife carried out the first (of many) internals, she somehow managed to pull my cervix down (which did not hurt much) and to my shock and surprise she broke my waters, and managed to stretch me to two centimetres dilated . I was gutted though as my OH was not there as her had gone to Tesco for supplies (we had been told I would be induced with a pessary and to expect to be in the hospital for a while)
Well oh my god!!! There was water everywhere!!!! It was still coming out when my OH got back 30 minutes later!! and I finally lost my plug WOOOOHOOOO!! . My poor OH looked completely freaked out!! Hehehe!
I had about four very mild contractions but nothing else and the midwife told me they were going to start me on the drip, this was at approx 6:00pm about half hour after my contractions started, I was able to breath through them with my OH rubbing my back, I went for approx 2 hours using just breathing my OH was in shock as he knows what a wuss I am
The pain was getting very intense and my contractions were coming very fast and intense, the midwife literally ordered me to try the gas and air I am too stubborn, well I could have kissed her after my first couple of blasts!!! That stuff is amazing!!
I cant remember the time but I also had some pethidine which was amazing, the pain in my back was making me shake and scream so the pethidine and gas and air were a god send
I was examined again at about 2am . Oh my god when she examined me it brought on the most painful and intense contractions, she found I was 4 cm dilated, my labour was going so slow, they upped the dose and I finally hit the maximum of 9ml.
The contractions were now coming way to quick and intense, I was writhing around in pain that much that I kept dropping my gas and air, and I was punching the bed (the OH made sure he was out of hitting range!!! Hehehe!!)
I was examined again at 3am and I was 5cm dilated, and in absolute agony, I was having 6 long contractions every 10 minutes, my drip was turned down and the midwife asked if I wanted an epidural to which I half growled/screamed NO, about 10 minutes later I sobbed please can I have the epidural I then had to wait nearly 45 minutes as the anesthetist was working her way through the labour ward every woman in there was having one and I was last in the que
She finally came in and was this crazy bouncy little woman with mad curly hair!!! She really made me at ease as I was crying inconsolably as I was scared of having it done .
She began to put in the needle but she hit a blood vessel, I could feel lots of hot liquid running down my back and I thought oh my god is that spinal fluid or blood it was blood ..
The epidural was a god send, I managed to get a little sleep, but I was still feeling pain under my rib, the midwife felt the area and said my little Bean was shoving his feet under there!!! So I continued with the gas and air.
At 7:30am I was examined and I was 9cm dilated!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! Me and my OH were so excited, it was nearly time for us to meet our gorgeous Bean
From out of nowhere, two consultants entered the room and told me there were concerned as my BP and temp were elevating.
I was examined and Bean was found to be back to back I knew all along he was, the pain was horrible!!
It was also found that he had his head back and not tucked down, the Dr attempted to bring his head forward but she could not get him to move, she told me that she would be back to examine me in 1 hour and if nothing had changed then it would be best to have a c-section.
I honestly felt the walls crash in on me, I was crying and felt like an utter failure!!! My OH and the midwife was trying to console me but nothing was helping, I continually refused the c-section and I was still refusing when the consultant returned. She checked my obs and said my temp had continued to rise and that it was getting serious, it was at that point I signed the paperwork, and she told me that my c-section was now an emergency c-section and she rang to tell theatre to cancel all other procedures I was so scared and then they took my OH away from me which made me start to panic and hyperventilate in the corridor, they managed to calm me down, and we continued to theatre.
They wheeled me down to theatre, and I could not stop crying, I began to hyperventilate and it took the theatre team quite a while to calm me down, I soon felt better when they eventually let my OH into the room.
They began the procedure and it felt so weird!!! Then all I heard was wow!!! They lifted our Bean over the screen and oh my god we were gob smacked our little Bean was a he!! I knew it all along, and our little Bean was not so little
He weighed a whopping 9lb 3oz and was 56cm long with a full head of blonde hair, it took them a while to bring him to us, but finally we had our Bean (now named Tristan) we had a couple of cuddles, but then they took him away again while they stitched me up, my temp began to rise so they started iv antibiotics.
I was then taken to recovery, my OH came with me but then went out to use the phone . They wouldnt let him back in due to infection control!!!!! So for the 4 hours they monitored me, my OH was left sitting outside not able to spend the first precious hours with his son!! I was so angry!!!
They finally took me down to the ward, I had my own room which was a god send, but the care I received was what has made this experience so heartbreaking to remember!! During the first night Baby Tristan was crying in the night and I could not reach him, I pressed the nurse call button for help and it took them over half an hour to come by which time he was screaming
I felt very uncomfy down below and asked them if everything was ok as I couldnt sit up to see and they said yes just your pad needs changing . Well the next morning when the lights were turned on I awoke to find I was covered in blood and the sheets were soaked and I was stuck to them!!! It was disgusting!!
They were constantly late with my medication so by the time I had it I was in agony . I was told the next day that I had lost over a litre in blood during the c-section so that I would need to take iron tablets . These were not given to me until I was discharged (on the Thursday).
We are now home and settle and my gorgeous blonde haired, blue eyed boy is two weeks old today
I have had to stop breast feeding as it was too painful physically and emotionally.
I have struggled with my emotions since coming home, thinking and talking about the birth really gets to me I feel like my body let me and my son down, not only could my body not push my baby out, it could no longer sustain breast feeding, my son now has colic due to formula feeding so I do feel like I have let him down!!
I would definitely have more children though, and we are planning on our next one already, so they crappy experience above has not put me off that much
