This week has not been that good. I want to wake up one morning and feel good, just for one full day, I know ti will be all worth it, it's just that it is exhausting.
Feeling sick really caught up with me, haven't actually been sick, just that feeling that if you burp you'll hurl, you stand up, you might hurl, you sit, you feel like you might hurl. I have been absolutely knackered as well, so tired, yet I wake at 2 ish every night for the toilet run but then I wake at 6ish and can't get back to sleep. I want to sleep, I'm tired.
Plus OH mother is staying with us, should have beenTues, Wed, Thurs and home today but she's now staying till Sunday!! I want my house back!!!!! it's only 1 bedroom so she sleeps on the settee that turns into a bed. She's a good cook, but the kitchen is always a mess and she always leaves the dishcloth or spongve wet through in the sink, papers here and there, she smokes like a frickin chimney (my OH smokes, but it doesn't really bother me, plus he tends to leave the room), she just p-uffs away after telling me to look after myself!!!!!
I feel better today, a little, tired, just had some food, yummy, went down well, but I feel down plus I don't think it's helping that I don't feel pregnant. Boobs are sore, tired, pants have top button open (although quite funny leaving the dinner hall, zip came down and jeans were almost round ankles!!!Could have been embarrassing!), just feel nothing. I shouldn't have looked at the belly page, I think cause I'm feeling a lttle down, I felt left out and that maybe my baby isn't growing properly and that's why my bellys not showing yet, etc etc etc etc bla bla bla!!!
I've been having silly thoughts, like I know a few have, about being a mum, do I know what to do, when do I knwo when to feed baby, where in the cot to sleep, stupid thigns I know the answer to but this time it's me and not a friends baby or family baby, this is me and my responsibility. It is very scary.
I am also missing family and friends, Mothers day on Sunday, dad has an op next week, my mates ........ well my mates are a big part of my life and I miss them. One bonus is that my OH seems to be a lot better. Not so much doom and gloom that we can't afford a baby at the mo and we have no roof over our head, etc. After telling my family and seeing the support we will get and telling his mum (who is chuffed), he seems more caring, happier, more concerened about how I feel, it's nice, I needed it. It's still not great, work is very very quiet and being self employed, bringing a baby into the world without a steady income is very daunting.
Another bonus is that both my sisters now have Skype and the other day I saw my little 1 year old niece walking unaided for the first time. It was great, she waffles away in her own little language and you can't help but listen. Brilliant.
It's just not a good week, nothing I do at the mo seems to make me feel better. Plus, tonight is Midsummer Murders and M in L will probably talk all the way through because she can't be bothered reading the subtitles, I missed the final episode of Alias on Tuesday cause she was smokign that much I was wheezing and the repeat is on tomorrow night at 11 by which time she will want to go to bed. AGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I want to scream!
Feeling sick really caught up with me, haven't actually been sick, just that feeling that if you burp you'll hurl, you stand up, you might hurl, you sit, you feel like you might hurl. I have been absolutely knackered as well, so tired, yet I wake at 2 ish every night for the toilet run but then I wake at 6ish and can't get back to sleep. I want to sleep, I'm tired.
Plus OH mother is staying with us, should have beenTues, Wed, Thurs and home today but she's now staying till Sunday!! I want my house back!!!!! it's only 1 bedroom so she sleeps on the settee that turns into a bed. She's a good cook, but the kitchen is always a mess and she always leaves the dishcloth or spongve wet through in the sink, papers here and there, she smokes like a frickin chimney (my OH smokes, but it doesn't really bother me, plus he tends to leave the room), she just p-uffs away after telling me to look after myself!!!!!
I feel better today, a little, tired, just had some food, yummy, went down well, but I feel down plus I don't think it's helping that I don't feel pregnant. Boobs are sore, tired, pants have top button open (although quite funny leaving the dinner hall, zip came down and jeans were almost round ankles!!!Could have been embarrassing!), just feel nothing. I shouldn't have looked at the belly page, I think cause I'm feeling a lttle down, I felt left out and that maybe my baby isn't growing properly and that's why my bellys not showing yet, etc etc etc etc bla bla bla!!!
I've been having silly thoughts, like I know a few have, about being a mum, do I know what to do, when do I knwo when to feed baby, where in the cot to sleep, stupid thigns I know the answer to but this time it's me and not a friends baby or family baby, this is me and my responsibility. It is very scary.
I am also missing family and friends, Mothers day on Sunday, dad has an op next week, my mates ........ well my mates are a big part of my life and I miss them. One bonus is that my OH seems to be a lot better. Not so much doom and gloom that we can't afford a baby at the mo and we have no roof over our head, etc. After telling my family and seeing the support we will get and telling his mum (who is chuffed), he seems more caring, happier, more concerened about how I feel, it's nice, I needed it. It's still not great, work is very very quiet and being self employed, bringing a baby into the world without a steady income is very daunting.
Another bonus is that both my sisters now have Skype and the other day I saw my little 1 year old niece walking unaided for the first time. It was great, she waffles away in her own little language and you can't help but listen. Brilliant.
It's just not a good week, nothing I do at the mo seems to make me feel better. Plus, tonight is Midsummer Murders and M in L will probably talk all the way through because she can't be bothered reading the subtitles, I missed the final episode of Alias on Tuesday cause she was smokign that much I was wheezing and the repeat is on tomorrow night at 11 by which time she will want to go to bed. AGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I want to scream!
I was gooing all over the forum.... 'feeling the love'......
As for the sickness, hopefully that doesn't last too long either. Without making it as though you are hurting her feelings, can you possibly tell her that her smoking is contributing to your feeling sick, or that it makes you feel sicker when she smokes around you?
