its been a long road but feeling positive

[laustiredttc]

After what has felt like a decade of ttc and going through every conceivable emotion, test, mc etc.... i now just want to wipe the slate clean and start afresh and i feel quite positive about doing it.

I am cd1 today and I am inviting everyone to join in Lets get some bfp's on the go

 

[kmr1763]

Can I join? I definitely feel your pain. My ds was conceived on my third round of Clomid in 2009. Now he's just turned three, we've been ttc number two for two years with some major ups and downs. I just started Clomid today (cd 3) after seeing the fs and rechecking the reason for my issues... Plain ole pcos. So ready to get this show on the road!

 

[laustiredttc]

Hey kmr i dont have pcos but have been told i have a low amh and high estrogen plus only have one tube. Despite all this i did conceive but recently mc early 5 wks. Its such a hard journey but i know i have to keep moving forwards and i feel more positive lately just because i know now that i can get pg. Can i ask where about are you in your cycle? i am cd 2. I hope the clomid works for you again hun fx

 

[kmr1763]

Soooo my iPad died and I lost the page. Haven't been on in days! Try your best to stay positive. It does get hard. I've never had a miscarriage, and I have no idea how difficult that must be. No idea. I'm cd 6 today, you must be cd 4? I seriously need a friend on here, hopefully to help maintain each other's sanity! None of my friends have trouble ttc, my mother didn't, her mother. I despise having no one to talk to!

 

[laustiredttc]

i know and i hate the pity looks people tend to give as well. It's like i have fertility problems i'm not fricking dying or anything!! People either have the view of its touchy to talk about i or the just get on with it attitudes. THEY HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so yeah i agree hun its nice to talk to people who just get it and understand and who can relate. I must admit though lately i'm so much more chilled out about it more. I know that it will just happen again one day when the time is right.

 

[PinkPeony]

Hi ladies, can I join?
I feel similar to you guys lately. I wouldn't say I feel positive per say but I feel like I've reached a point of exeptence of my situation and I'm much more relaxed. Partly bc I was recently referred for IVF... Just waiting to get my first appointment now but it'll likely be next month sometime.
I've been at this for 2 years now. I did an IUI this month, I'm 5dpo today and this TWW is feeling super slow for some reason. Probably bc I just want to move on already...
Anyway could def use some peeps to chat with.

 

[kmr1763]

Laus-- I know what you mean!!! What really bugs me is when people say stop trying at it will happen. Gaghhh no it won't! Don't say that to me! It can only happen when we TRY. Okay, my little rant is over. Dh and I have been ttc number 2 for two years on and off. Got put on Clomid two different times, but something always came up. Was ttc ds for a year... Got pregnant on third round of Clomid. I still obsess. Especially when I'm on an assisted cycle. Like now, cd 8, waiting to o and just going crazy. The time is passing so slowly!

 

[laustiredttc]

Welcome pink I think that's the same reason why i have started to relax myself as we have an app for an ivf referral in aug so now i just think well if we get pg before then great but if not i have my back up plan! I do have alot more hope these days though and i have been doing visual and meditation exercises everyday to keep me feeling positive. Still it's nice to vent sometimes and people on here are always fantastic.

Hey kmr, i REALLY HATE HATE HATE when people say stop trying and it will happen. i did, and i did get a bfp but it ended in mc, go figure... So honestly if someone says that now i just say to them unless you are going through the same thing then you cant understand so please don't try to and offer me words that have no meaning to me right now, cheers!! I have had one or two funny looks but seriously i just don't care anymore. If they cant be sensitive enough to think about what they are saying then neither will I, simple!!!!!!!!

I don't obsess as much anymore in the tww but i still pay attention to what my body is doing. Like i used to think that every twinge, trump, burp, acid reflux etc... was a pg sign and i would drive myself nuts, like literally nuts thinking was i wasn't i and in the end i just had this huge emotional breakdown. That's when i said right enough is enough and stopped the charting opk's, etc... i'm happier for it but the desire is still there lol

ps sorry for long post, got carried away

 

[PinkPeony]

Welcome pink I think that's the same reason why i have started to relax myself as we have an app for an ivf referral in aug so now i just think well if we get pg before then great but if not i have my back up plan! I do have alot more hope these days though and i have been doing visual and meditation exercises everyday to keep me feeling positive. Still it's nice to vent sometimes and people on here are always fantastic.

^^^ Exactly the way I feel. I also saw a therapist last month and that has helped a lot. My one big blind spot is still when others get pregnant really easily so I still have a few things that will set me off and get me down for a few days, but in general I'm just trying to roll with it a bit more.

 

[Chcltbnny]

Hi ladies,

I hope you will let me join you. I am on cycle day 11 and I am just taking it easy.

I took Soy Iso for 5 days and decided that I am not taking anything else. Just to give myself a break. - I am still charting to see what my temps are looking like but not obsessing over them.

I am going to start with a new RE next month and get all the testing redone, then possibly look into another IUI but I am staying positive. I just need a month of not thinking about how to make it happen.

 

[laustiredttc]

hey pink, totally!! It still grates on me how it can be sooo easy for people esp who drink, smoke and take drugs etc.... and yet here we are doing everything on gods green earth to try to conceive our liccle miracles and nada, zilch, bloody nothing!! ok little rant over. But yeah i agree just rolling with it now, gotta keep head up

welcome ch, i took soy but had major reactions to it and ended up in hospital eeeek. It's starnge how its great for some and not for others. Doing the same myself, just taking a chilled approach and hoping the big man upstairs grants us a chance to have a lo. I hope the re gets the right results and you go on to have a successful iui fx

 

[TooExcited]

Hello - long time no speak!

I feel your pain totally. We too have been referred for ivf and the weight it lifts off your shoulders is amazing!

Just found out I have slightly low amh so now have to take DHEA for 6 weeks to boost the Evie's before we can start treatment.

I feel really positive this month. I've totally behaved with alcohol (wasn't having much before but now I'm not having any) and have started acupuncture & have done lots of positive thinking & visualisation.

Hang in there hun - we WILL get there xx

 

[laustiredttc]

same here as well hun my amh is 9.8 and im 29. i am also doing acupuncture but a bit unsure about taking dhea as i have high estriodol sorry spelled wrongl. im taking coq10, omega 3, and maca plus pre natal. what is your amh if you dont mind me asking hun. and will you be doing a natural ivf cycle or with meds?