hey ladies!
im finding things really hard lately! its 2 month 2moro since i lost kevin at 18 weeks! and i was fine at the start but now am realising that i think i was just numb! its all hitting me now! i put on brave face in work so girls dont realise! but dont know how much longer i can keep it up!
my OH never talks about kevin! he'll listen to me but i feel i cant open up fully about it cz he dont talk back! i would love another baby now, not to replace kevin but i just got so used to being pregnant and having a baby with me that i want it all back! he wants to wait 2 or 3 yrs untlil we try again! i cant wait that long! were young and dont have much but i dont care! a baby doesnt need every mod con! i suggested that we do it once and if it happens it happens and if not we'll wait a year and he wont give me straight answer!
and i wont let him touch me at all! im afraid im going to drive him away!
i just wish this nightmare would end!!!!!!!!
thanks for reading! and sorry its so long!
love Karen!
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im finding things really hard lately! its 2 month 2moro since i lost kevin at 18 weeks! and i was fine at the start but now am realising that i think i was just numb! its all hitting me now! i put on brave face in work so girls dont realise! but dont know how much longer i can keep it up!
my OH never talks about kevin! he'll listen to me but i feel i cant open up fully about it cz he dont talk back! i would love another baby now, not to replace kevin but i just got so used to being pregnant and having a baby with me that i want it all back! he wants to wait 2 or 3 yrs untlil we try again! i cant wait that long! were young and dont have much but i dont care! a baby doesnt need every mod con! i suggested that we do it once and if it happens it happens and if not we'll wait a year and he wont give me straight answer!
and i wont let him touch me at all! im afraid im going to drive him away!
i just wish this nightmare would end!!!!!!!!
thanks for reading! and sorry its so long!
love Karen!
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