Just looking for some support.

[Aaisrie]

I had my 4th BFP month in a row. I really thought it was happening this month. After trying for just over a year. I had a MC at just over 6 weeks last year, a chem in January, then the last 3 months I had chems. I saw the Dr a few weeks ago who referred me to the hospital but said it would take 3 months. On Friday I had 2 really strong BFPs at 13dpo [my LP is only 12 days so AF was 1 day late] my temp dropped the last 2 days and then this morning the BFP was barely visible. I went to check my cervix about 30 mins ago and there was blood in the canal. Just checked again and there's more bright red blood. It's over again. I can't handle this again. Why? Why is it happening again. I know there's people who have had many more losses than myself so I feel selfish asking for support but I just feel so broken and low right now :[

 

[mommy2lexi]

So sorry for your losses hun

Never feel bad in asking for support....that is what we are all here for! It's the good thing about the boards, we have been through it. I've only had 1 loss myself so I can't imagine the pain you are going through. I just know that it is a very hard thing to deal with emotionally and you will need all the support you can get.

I really hope and pray that you are able to get a sticky BFP very soon.

 

[ettegirb21]

I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. We are here and know what you are going through. Have you seen a Reproductive Endocrinologist to do testing? Just a thought. The RE can at least give you some answers.
We saw one after I had my second m/c. Everything came back normal, which leads us to believe we were just unlucky both times we were pregnant.
Keeping you in my thoughts & sending big hugs.

 

[Helly]

Eve, Im so so sorry honey. I cant believe this has been happening to you. I know you can get through it, I just hope you get that sticky bean next cycle x

 

[Aaisrie]

Thank you so much. I've been referred by the GP to the specialist at the hospital but they said it takes 3 months for the appointment. I've just come home from A&E where they ran some bloods, the nurse seemed really shocked that I had that many chems month after month. They sent me up to gynae and we waited for 4 hours for the Dr to tell me that because their pregnancy test came back negative that I was having a "normal period" and that I was only 28 and have loads of time...

 

[mommy2lexi]

Wow....so was the Dr. trying to ignore the issue by telling you that you are young and have time? If so, I am really sorry sweetie...they don't have a right to determine when you want to have a child. Obviously you want a baby or else you wouldn't go through this all the time!!! The nerve! I am so sorry...I really hope you get some answers soon....keep us posted!

 

[Aaisrie]

That was basically the way she said it. She also told me that she couldn't comment on the reliability of the HPT I'd used [FRER!] and that they really do more harm than good because then people find out too early and then have the loss when it doesn't stick. I explained to her that I never test until AF is at least 2 days late. She just made me feel like I had no reason to be upset, the only decent thing she said was that it wasn't normal to have this many losses, the rest of it was just crap, especially since I'd sat there waiting for her for 4 hrs!

 

[mommy2lexi]

Is it possible to find another dr.? That one doesn't sound like she really cares. That is rediculous....I am so sorry

Some people (even dr's) just aren't sympathetic....essp. if they haven't been though it before.

 

[Aaisrie]

Well she was just the one I was referred to by A&E but my own GP says the same sort of things. Hopefully when I get an appt. at the fertility clinic I'll see someone who's a little more understanding. Someone else here recommended for me to use the progesterone cream because I really feel that might be my problem. I get positive tests, my temp starts dropping, still positive tests, temp drops below coverline, positive test with AF starting [same urine is positive while having AF in it]. I'm hoping if I can keep my progesterone up it will stop my body.... losing it?

 

[mommy2lexi]

I think the progesterone cream would def. be worth a shot!! I mean it can't hurt and isn't invasive or anything. Plus, it will probably take a while to get the appt.'s with the fertility specialists going....and it could be something you can do in the meantime and then maybe not even need to go!! Maybe just get a BFP that sticks thanks to the cream. I mean, you are able to get prego...it's the sticking part that isn't working. A lot of women on here have had good results from the progesterone cream from what I have read! Give it a try

 

[Aaisrie]

Exactly! I mean the supposed 25% chance of getting pregnant each month, I've hit the last 4 no problem, my body just wants to kick it out every time. I'm hoping this will help.

Thank you so much for your support, this has been a really hard day and no doubt this week and month will be hard too.

 

[mommy2lexi]

Aww no problem I hope that it gets better and the progesterone cream helps it stick next time. Let me know how it works out!

 

[hotpinkangel]

Hey Hun, just wanted to say how sorry I am for your losses, I had 2 chemicals this year, one after another, march then April. In may I gave myself the month off ttc, started taking baby aspirin and vit b complex and got my bfp at beginning of June so far, fx'd crossed I'm 13 weeks pregnant. I was like you, got pg really easily but it wouldn't stick. Hope this helped. Any questions please pm me xx

 

[debgreasby]

 

[Tigerlilies]

I'm sorry for the difficult time you're going through Aaisrie. I definitely recommend the progesterone cream too. You're definitely OV'ing, the eggs are becoming fertile, but you're temps are all over the place. My Dr wants me to start clomid but on top of that, I'm going to use progesterone cream from the vitamin store. You should start the recommended dose on the bottle the day you OV, if it sticks, keep using the cream until you get that hospital appointment. If it doesn't, you're temp will still drop and you'll AF so stop the cream until the next OV day. God bless sweetie and good luck!!!!!

 

[Aaisrie]

dietrad ah right so your temp will still drop even with using the cream?? How does it stop you MC then?? Sorry I'm just really confused. I know one of the other girls said the instructions tell you to use it to 14dpo [even though my LP is only 12] and if no BFP by then then you stop using it? It's the https://www.progesterone.co.uk/ I was recommended.

 

[Tigerlilies]

The instructions of the cream is definitely use for up to CD14 then stop. I saw my dr yesterday and he said that if you didn't conceive, your body will still start to have a period. So with that bit of info, I would say the cream is there for support, if your body isn't producing enough progesterone from being PG, the cream isn't strong enough to stop a period, but if you did conceive, and were just making some progesterone, the cream might make up for that lack thereof to help support the PG. Does that make sense?
That creams looks good, just progesterone, no estrogen precursers. It certainly won't hurt anything, if you're comfortable with it, go for it.

 

[Aaisrie]

Ah right I get it now, it's like it makes your progesterone "normal" rather than low as it normally is, it just tops it up! I'm pretty much willing to try anything, all these losses take their toll so much, not just on me, my OH, but on my emotions and my daughter knows when stuff is going down [she's 17 months] and she's been all out of sorts since I have been too, bless her. Waiting for Dr's to do anything is like waiting for hell to freeze over!!

 

[Tigerlilies]

lol, yeah, waiting on a dr's just makes it worse . I wish you a thousand blessings that this will work out for you Aaisrie! Your little girl will have a sibling soon, I'm sure of it!

 

[wannabe mam]

I am so sorry for your loss and can totally understand your frustration. I am in a similar situation and miscarried in March and every month I am not pregnant I feel is a waste and I am wishing my life away! People keep telling me that it will happen when you dont try but I am never not trying! Make some future plans to give you something to look forward to just so you are focusing on more than just pregnancy.
Good luck and best wishes xxx