keep convincing myself its going wrong.

[CandyApple19]

hi, i had a mmc in may after 5 weeks of scans.. this time im.convincing myself something isnt right,the same 'gut feeling'. my tests are very dark but dont seem.to be getting darker..infact theyre lighter than yesterdays! :'((( im not feeling more and more pregnant, i just have v sore boobs and hunger.


keep telling myself this isnt gonna work out.....im.so frightened.

 

[CandyApple19]

well cheers for the support. eesh.

 

[baileybubs]

Hi there,

I've only just hopped on this forum coz I only got my BFP this morning. And I know how you feel, I keep thinking that this must just be a chemical and I keep thinking it won't end with a baby in april. It's as if I am preparing for a mc again not preparing for a baby!!
I never had a gut feeling something was wrong with my last pregnancy until week 11, and at my scan at week 12 it turned out my baby had died at week 11.

But I have promised myself I will not let my mc not let me enjoy this pregnancy. I loved being pregnant last time, and I talked to my none existent bump and chatted to my little Lillie as we had already named her. And I wouldn't give that up for the world and was so happy I got the little time I did with her. So this time I will do the same, I will try to plan my future with this baby, and talk to him or her and be proud of my bump/bloatedness!! And hopefully it will all be ok xxxxx

 

[baileybubs]

Maybe get the docs to do blood tests of your hcg levels to reassure you. Hpt tests aren't always reliable in how dark they are etc, throw them away hun and try to relax (I know it's hard, as I said I'm already panicking) but have faith xxxxx

 

[wookie130]

Candy, I would definitely get a beta hcg test, and have it redone in 48 hours...that's a great way to check for early pregnancy viability. Seeing those numbers more than double in 48 hours definitely helped to set my mind at ease.

This is my 3rd pregnancy in a year. I lost my other 2, and I don't have any other living children. I'm 34 years old, so of course, I feel pressured by the age thing...and I'm convinced that because I'm approaching "advanced maternal age" that something will go wrong. Pregnancy after a loss is a stressful, uncertain time...and it is so normal for someone to talk themselves into the worst-case scenario after having a miscarriage. Take it one day at a time...it will drag by slowly, but try to stay distracted, and try to remain as positive as you can.

 

[baileybubs]

Yeah I agree with wookie, one day at a time. But I notice you live in the uk, I have just been to doctors to confirm my pregnancy, I've been referred to the midwife and I asked for hcg betas and progesterone blood tests and they said no. They don't see how it would help basically, which is awful. I think you should just try and stay relaxed and distract yourself.

 

[wookie130]

I know of many other ladies on here who are from the UK, and who have had beta hcg's done, and early reassurance scans as well! It probably largely depends on your area...

 

[CandyApple19]

my tests are much darker now, so im trying not to panic! i see my gp tomorrow too so i can ask then for an early scan. ive since had a lil bit of sickness and my boobs kill! i keep feeling reserved but then i tell myself to relax! irs hsrd work but it is a new pregnancy abd i shouldnt expect the worst to happen..i just wish we could just know everythings gonna turn out alright! :-/