hi im looking for someone who understands.
i lost my baby on the 23rd sept 2012, i was 18 weeks but had problems from day 1.
i felt like i was never away from the hospital with passing massive clots the size of my palm. Never any pain and my baby was alway happy and growing well. But on the 19th sept my waters broke baby was still fine not as happy as he should have been but his heartbeat was strong and i could feel him alot. I was told i only had 1 cm of fluid left but he was swallowing and producing fluid himself. They didnt give me any faulse hope but i was still so hopefull as his beating heart in kicks were good signs.
I got out of hospital on sat and i gave birth to him in my house on the sunday with no contractions i couldnt believe what was happening.
When i got back to the hospital i saw my baby boy and he was perfect 10 fingers 10 toes and no sign of any dissorders or anything.
We had Joshs funeral on Thurs a day i will never forget. I feel strange though like sometimes i can feel him kick me, i know its not him but my body is playing a horrible game with me and all i can think about is how much i want him back. He should be under the ground he should be kicking me and giving me back ache and heart burn.
I cant make any sense of it. x
i lost my baby on the 23rd sept 2012, i was 18 weeks but had problems from day 1.
i felt like i was never away from the hospital with passing massive clots the size of my palm. Never any pain and my baby was alway happy and growing well. But on the 19th sept my waters broke baby was still fine not as happy as he should have been but his heartbeat was strong and i could feel him alot. I was told i only had 1 cm of fluid left but he was swallowing and producing fluid himself. They didnt give me any faulse hope but i was still so hopefull as his beating heart in kicks were good signs.
I got out of hospital on sat and i gave birth to him in my house on the sunday with no contractions i couldnt believe what was happening.
When i got back to the hospital i saw my baby boy and he was perfect 10 fingers 10 toes and no sign of any dissorders or anything.
We had Joshs funeral on Thurs a day i will never forget. I feel strange though like sometimes i can feel him kick me, i know its not him but my body is playing a horrible game with me and all i can think about is how much i want him back. He should be under the ground he should be kicking me and giving me back ache and heart burn.
I cant make any sense of it. x