Good morning,
my waking thought today was that unborn babies are amazing creatures. Do you remember being a teenager and moaning endlessly at growing pains? Imagine what the little bean must be experiencing not only growing in size but growing all of its organs in such a short space of time. I have so much respect for mine already!!
-- Hehe, yes, I started going a little loopy
- I still cannot believe what is happening with my body. I think hearing the hearbeat or seeing the scan will make it all so much more real. I have had upset stomach (I found that I cannot drink fizzy drinks), but I havent been sick.
I sort of understand now when my husband says that yes, he is excited but he will believe it all so much better when he sees or hears evidence, because women can feel what is happening to them, men only see/hear what is happening and at these early stages it is little frustrating for them.
You are very fortunate to have a Dr who knows you well and who understands your body and your needs. I live in a small city and whenever I need to see a Dr, I go to my local surgery and see a different Dr every time! That is ok, because as soon as I have my first appointment with my MW, she will be the one whom I will try to get to know better and hopefully she'll try to do the same. I hope to have a good relationship with her. I work as an interpreter and I have been to many MW appointments before (with various clients) and I know that really special bond could be formed between the mummy and MW.
I have never really been sentimental person, but I feel a certain sense of responsibility now - it is not just my life now, it is OUR life now and I think sometimes along the way my baby might want to look back at the pictures - ok, not when it is a baby but maybe, just maybe I may be expecting a daughter and I could share my journey with her when she falls pregnant? Also, when it is a teenager, going through its teenage strops, i shall be calming myself down by looking at my journal and thinking, yes, that is how happy I was to bring the child to this world. Sorry, I may be ranting here but that is how i feel right now. Having said that, I have yet to start writing it
I only have the photos so far
When I told my husband about ordering the heart monitor, he said it was very silly because I will just freak myself out when I cannot hear it. (it is called 'Angelsounds Doppler' and I ordered it off Amazon.co.uk, but i am sure you'll be able to find it on Ebay too). The way it works, you place it on the belly when you're over 12 wks pregnant and depending how the baby is positioned, you should be able to hear the heartbeat. I am well aware that it depends on the positioning of the baby and that i will not always be able to hear the heartbeat but I am willing to take my chances. You can apparently link it to a PC too and record the heartbeat. That is another reason why I ordered it - I live in England, UK but I originally come from Czech Republic and my family won't get to experience my pregnancy so i will try and record the baby's hearbeat and email it to them. Well, that is my intention, anyway.
Take care and I'm sending happy positive thoughts your way
!!!!!!!!!!! It is both frightening and exciting - especially for us, first timers 
