Losing Hope!

[kaye]

Hi Ladies

Sorry another depressing post really! More just to write it to get it off my chest then anything else.

I feel the longer this journey goes on the more i think/find out is wrong! Just starting to lose hope really and if i lose that what have i got

sick of it all, sick of hearing be patient it will happen, concentrate on the here and now and focus on the changes you need to make. I know they are right, but oh my gosh i wanna scream "I WANT IT NOW, I DON'T WANT TO WAIT, EVERYONE ELSE GETS IT STRAIGHT AWAY, WHY NOT ME"

I need to lose 3.5stone and i have done it before i can do it again, i know this but for some reason i just keep cheating on my diet.

I have had bloods that say i ovulate and bloods that say i don't. I have a regular 27/28 day cycle. i have started agnus castus for progesterone, and now i have started using Duo fertility and that showed i ovulated on cd17, however i was lightly spotting cd26 and cd27 full flow AF, so lutheal phase is too short.
So now this week i have added one b6 tablet (just to add to everything else, im surprised i dont rattle when i walk) in the hope it will increase my lutheal phase.
nothing more i can do, as hospital will not help me till i lose the weight. I hate myself for not doing this one thing and just get the weight off.

Also my hubby has a pretty low sperm count too


Sorry for going on and on and on, just feeling so down, i want my turn now.

babydust to everyone xxxx

 

[Princess Lou]

Hi,

Sometimes it can help to get everything off your chest.

I also need to lose weight (about the same amount actually, lol) but my priority was cigarettes. I have now been smoke free for over a month (yey me!!) so I am going to start in the New Year with the weight loss. I think it's asking too much to start now. Lol. The hardest thing for me was smoking so I am hoping I will find this easier. Fingers crossed. If you need someone to 'buddy up' with in your weight loss mission I will happily do that for you, offer encouragement etc.

I don't want you to give up hope, you need hope to continue (my opinion anyway).

My sister sent something to me, hopefully it will help you as much as it helped me.

What do I think is meant by my infertility?

I think it is so my husband and I grow closer, become stronger, love deeper. I think we are meant to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down. I think it is meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols. I think it is meant for us to find a cure for infertility.

No, it is not that we are never meant for to not have children. That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a better person for it. Clearly, I am meant to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let myself down.

Frankly, if the truth be known, I think I have been singled out for a special treatment. I think I am meant to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.

While I would never choose infertility, I can not deny that a fertile woman could never know the joy that awaits me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own. And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice I'll say, "Don't tell me why I have been handed infertility. I already know.

Good luck. X

 

[kaye]

Thank you so much for your kind words. That is lovely what your sister sent you, thanks for sharing it.

Yes lets buddy up

well done on the non smoking. I gave up 2 years ago, thats when i gained alot of my weight but then just carried on eating and eating lol.

Quitting the smoking is deffinately better for you then the weight, the weight can be done later.

New year, news us it is then

 

[Princess Lou]

I'm quite lucky, when I started giving up smoking, I never ate instead, I just accepted it. Lol. When I met my hubby I was 8st and 18, had an eating disorder (wasn't anorexia or bulimia) so I hadn't fully finished growing. Then I would start eating around people and eating more and the weight started gaining. When we married I was a healthy 10stone, then a month later I found out my Mum had cancer and two month after that she died, a month after I lost my job and two month after, I lost my apartment. At the beginning of the year I was 15stone, almost double what I was when I met hubby. In the summer I got to just under 14stone but I slipped in the bath, damaged my back and couldn't do any exercise so sat and felt sorry for myself and ate what made me feel better. Lol. Not good. I am now about 14.5stone and aim to get my BMI down to ideally 22 but I will settle for under 25. Lol.

To help me I have a cross-trainer (birthday pressie of hubby) and the Wii, lol. I have Wii Fit and Zumba. I also live next door to a leisure centre and love running (although it's too cold so that's where the cross-trainer comes in). Lol. I just have to remember to eat regularly and healthy. Lol.

How about you? X

 

[kaye]

Hi,

well i have always struggles with weight, but when we got married, i lost 4 stone so was exactly 14 stone and felt good, but then i quit smoking replaced fags with food, old habits came back.
I also have a bad back and one of one of my discs is protruding, its awful sometimes.

My weight in 2 years has shot back up to 17 stone 6!!!!! However i have been doing weight watchers and i am at 16stone 8 now. So i need to lose 2lb tonight for my stone but i will prob gain a little over xmas . Back on track after xmas tho.


We can do this together.

 

[Princess Lou]

By losing weight before, you know you can do it again. Anyone who says they are going to keep dieting over Christmas are either lying, very delusional or very determined. Lol.

I have a friend, don't know her weight, but she was a UK dress size 24 seven month ago and by doing Slimming World and walking rather than driving, she gained her 5 stone lost award last night and is looking fabulous for it. She is also one of those people that give up way too easy on things so therefore is a huge inspiration for me.

I have an advantage that I love cooking and I am not short on time to do it either (I stay at home and start studying with OU in Feb, hubby works). This means that I am always experimenting with new things and prefer to use fresh ingredients and it's easy to go with low fat as I know exactly what I am eating. Lol. My main problem is boredom eating.

I do hope your back gets sorted soon. Mine got really bad last month and my hubby had to help to the bathroom. I was mortified. Lol. Ended up on muscle relaxants and nerve ending numbers. Lol.

I hope you don't mind me asking, but, where are you based?

(I will also apologise for the rambling, I do that an awful lot. Lol.)

X

 

[kaye]

Your not rambling at all, please talk away.

I am near Manchester.

I tried slimming world and it didn't work for me at all, but it did for my hubby. He lost an amazing 15lb in a week. Where as i only lost 6lb in 6 months. I did everything right aswell. So weight watchers works better for me.

Yeah i am enjoying my xmas, no point kidding myself as you just end up feeling crap and guilty dont you? Nah, have a good few days, then go gym next few days lol.

I am quite looking forward to January to be honest, everyone is in the zone then arent they and everywhere you go about new year, new you! So hoping it will rub off on me.


Are you ready for xmas?

 

[cooch]

Hi Ladies

Sorry another depressing post really! More just to write it to get it off my chest then anything else.

I feel the longer this journey goes on the more i think/find out is wrong! Just starting to lose hope really and if i lose that what have i got

sick of it all, sick of hearing be patient it will happen, concentrate on the here and now and focus on the changes you need to make. I know they are right, but oh my gosh i wanna scream "I WANT IT NOW, I DON'T WANT TO WAIT, EVERYONE ELSE GETS IT STRAIGHT AWAY, WHY NOT ME"

I need to lose 3.5stone and i have done it before i can do it again, i know this but for some reason i just keep cheating on my diet.

I have had bloods that say i ovulate and bloods that say i don't. I have a regular 27/28 day cycle. i have started agnus castus for progesterone, and now i have started using Duo fertility and that showed i ovulated on cd17, however i was lightly spotting cd26 and cd27 full flow AF, so lutheal phase is too short.
So now this week i have added one b6 tablet (just to add to everything else, im surprised i dont rattle when i walk) in the hope it will increase my lutheal phase.
nothing more i can do, as hospital will not help me till i lose the weight. I hate myself for not doing this one thing and just get the weight off.

Also my hubby has a pretty low sperm count too


Sorry for going on and on and on, just feeling so down, i want my turn now.

babydust to everyone xxxx

Don't take this the wrong way. My heavily obese friend is pregnant again! I'm sure your hardly overweight but I truly believe weight has nothing to do with it. My husband put it like this- if the body is like a car, no matter the body work (the outside and weight) if the engine (everything inside inc hormones) is running fine then you'll still get to where you need to go (pregnancy). You need investigations into how well you are ovulating. Your ovulation impacts on your hormones and vice versa. My progesterone was low and since being on Femara and HCG injections, I am definitely ovulating and after ovulating my corpus luteum is sustained=good progesterone levels. Are you UK or US. GP's will tell you that you're ovulating even when the level is pretty low, the NHS have such low standards then call people 'unexplained' when they don't look into things xx

 

[kaye]

Hi Ladies

Sorry another depressing post really! More just to write it to get it off my chest then anything else.

I feel the longer this journey goes on the more i think/find out is wrong! Just starting to lose hope really and if i lose that what have i got

sick of it all, sick of hearing be patient it will happen, concentrate on the here and now and focus on the changes you need to make. I know they are right, but oh my gosh i wanna scream "I WANT IT NOW, I DON'T WANT TO WAIT, EVERYONE ELSE GETS IT STRAIGHT AWAY, WHY NOT ME"

I need to lose 3.5stone and i have done it before i can do it again, i know this but for some reason i just keep cheating on my diet.

I have had bloods that say i ovulate and bloods that say i don't. I have a regular 27/28 day cycle. i have started agnus castus for progesterone, and now i have started using Duo fertility and that showed i ovulated on cd17, however i was lightly spotting cd26 and cd27 full flow AF, so lutheal phase is too short.
So now this week i have added one b6 tablet (just to add to everything else, im surprised i dont rattle when i walk) in the hope it will increase my lutheal phase.
nothing more i can do, as hospital will not help me till i lose the weight. I hate myself for not doing this one thing and just get the weight off.

Also my hubby has a pretty low sperm count too


Sorry for going on and on and on, just feeling so down, i want my turn now.

babydust to everyone xxxx

Don't take this the wrong way. My heavily obese friend is pregnant again! I'm sure your hardly overweight but I truly believe weight has nothing to do with it. My husband put it like this- if the body is like a car, no matter the body work (the outside and weight) if the engine (everything inside inc hormones) is running fine then you'll still get to where you need to go (pregnancy). You need investigations into how well you are ovulating. Your ovulation impacts on your hormones and vice versa. My progesterone was low and since being on Femara and HCG injections, I am definitely ovulating and after ovulating my corpus luteum is sustained=good progesterone levels. Are you UK or US. GP's will tell you that you're ovulating even when the level is pretty low, the NHS have such low standards then call people 'unexplained' when they don't look into things xx

Hi,
thanks for your help and i like the way your hubby thinks , i also beleive weight has no effect, i no plenty off overweight people with babies.

I am UK, my first lots of bloods showed level 36 progesteron, however a year later i had them done again and they showed 26 and 24. Which i beleive is low. However, i have regular cycle 27/28 daas. I have been taking agnus castus for 3 months to help with progesterone and this last week a b6 tablet to help lengthen my lutheal phase.

I have had all tests and hopsital said they could give me clomid but only when my bmi is 30 or under, so told to go away.

 

[Princess Lou]

Your not rambling at all, please talk away.

I am near Manchester.

I tried slimming world and it didn't work for me at all, but it did for my hubby. He lost an amazing 15lb in a week. Where as i only lost 6lb in 6 months. I did everything right aswell. So weight watchers works better for me.

Yeah i am enjoying my xmas, no point kidding myself as you just end up feeling crap and guilty dont you? Nah, have a good few days, then go gym next few days lol.

I am quite looking forward to January to be honest, everyone is in the zone then arent they and everywhere you go about new year, new you! So hoping it will rub off on me.


Are you ready for xmas?

Ahh Christmas. Bloody hate it. Lol. But that's a different story.

Congrats to your hubby losing all that weight in a week, shame it didn't work for you though. Definitely weight watches.

I'm determined to get the weight off, not for pregnancy but for me. I don't feel as sexy as I used to and it's put me off sex, which is daft because my hubby is happy that I gained weight as I don't look as ill as I did. He does agree with me though, I could do with losing some of it (took me months to get him to own up to it though).

As long as we are determined and doing it for the right reason I think we will succeed.

(I also have friends/relatives that are obese and had healthy pregnancies, but unfortunately, for most treatments you have to have a BMI of a certain range which is why so many women need to lose weight in order to succeed.)

XX