M/C is robbing me of enjoying pregnancy

[mamaxs4]

I lost a baby girl in '99 at 22 weeks and 3 years ago I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks. I am now 29 weeks pregnant and just freaking out over every little thing.
Now, that I can feel his every move, I obsess about it. Is he moving too much or too little. Is he really ok? Early on in the first trimester I spotted almost the whole time. It turned out to be a placenta previa causing the bleeding. Since that has resolved itself, I have been diagnosed with gestational diabetes and a short cervix. I have been on bedrest since about 24weeks and been in the hospital overnight. Every ultrasound shows a strong baby that looks amazing with a strong heartbeat. My husband is all the time telling me I'm over reacting. He is very confidant that this baby is fine. But I can't help it despite having three healthy pregnancies. The miscarriage three yrs ago is ruining me with this pregnancy. I am counting down till this baby is born and I may never put him down!

 

[wildflower79]

Hiya, I have no advice just hang on in there, you haven't got too long to go now! Its completely understandable that your feeling this way after suffering your losses before.

 

[mamaxs4]

Thank-you...I have also been experiencing some strange things almost the entire pregnancy. You know the sob sighs after a hard cry? That happens randomly, as well as random tears. Sometimes I wake up feeling like I have been crying. Should I bring that up with my dr? Never experienced it before.

 

[wildflower79]

I think it's always worth speaking to your doctor. Sometimes just talking through how your feeling can help. Its probably just a mixture of anxiety and hormones though. Just being pregnant can send your emotions all over the place! It's probably not helping that you're on bed rest either, because its obviously a lot harder to keep distracted and busy.

I presume because you have GD they won't let you go over due and may even induce you early? Keep reminding yourself that you haven't got too long to go now

 

[mamaxs4]

the dr hasnt mentioned induction, but he thinks baby could come early because of my cervix being short. I had two steroid shots when they first found it. At 24weeks it was 1.6 centimeters when it should be 4. At my last check up it was measuring 3 centimeters. Which is amazing and I am glad for the ultrasounds because its very reasurring. I am concerned about the gd and baby is measuring small. He's a week behind at the moment. I'm a little concerned about that, the dr told me not to worry about that unless it gets worse. But, it's hard not to.

 

[Miracle1902]

Mamax: I know how you feel. I had 2 miscarriages between Aug and Oct. Now a month later I am pregnant again. I am probably only 4.5 weeks along. I worry everyday I will miscarry again. I woke up today and my breast tenderness faded and my heart sunk. Every time my panty gets wet I panic. As you know when you are pregnancy, there are a lot of discharges so you often to feel wet down there so that doesn't help. I worry every minute of the day. I understand it is hard. At 29 weeks, I believe this one will stick for you. I wish you the best.

 

[mamaxs4]

Well, 31 weeks now! And I completely get the wet issue. I have that oh gosh am I leaking panic moments every time it happens! I hope every thing turns out fine for you!