Hi ladies thank you for your kind words yesterday and today.
It was a very surreal feeling yesterday. I was glad to wake up and see that the weather man got it wrong. And instead of rain and wind it was a warm and sunny day. That made it a bit easier, but sad too cause in a weird way i like to think my Angel Baby was shining down.
We left in the car about 11am, though i had been up since 6:30am to go to the cemetery. When we got there it seemed so peaceful and lovely with the morning sun. We put some yellow flowers down for my partners brother. Then the huge 2ft yellow and white teddy bear infront lol. Looked so lovely. I didnt feel alone as i walked around on my own for a bit. Felt like someone was trying to comfort me from within.
The day was filled wish shoulda beens and if onlys.
But i made it through. All those months i had been dreading the 17th May. And it was finally there. I strangely didnt feel so bad as i was expecting an apocolyps or something lol. I was kept busy i baked all day and had a cheeky glass of wine. Was so pleases it had been a nice day.
And today i feel strange. Almost more at peace within myself than i have been these past 6 months. I feel like iv survived a storm and now all it calm within me. And only now i feel i can let go a little more and move on emotionally. Im glad i did something for my angel baby. And i'll never forget my Angel baby. Only now its not so hard.
God Bless all of you sweet and brave ladies. It truly does get easier. Finally after such a long time of grief and sorrow.
It was a very surreal feeling yesterday. I was glad to wake up and see that the weather man got it wrong. And instead of rain and wind it was a warm and sunny day. That made it a bit easier, but sad too cause in a weird way i like to think my Angel Baby was shining down.
We left in the car about 11am, though i had been up since 6:30am to go to the cemetery. When we got there it seemed so peaceful and lovely with the morning sun. We put some yellow flowers down for my partners brother. Then the huge 2ft yellow and white teddy bear infront lol. Looked so lovely. I didnt feel alone as i walked around on my own for a bit. Felt like someone was trying to comfort me from within.
The day was filled wish shoulda beens and if onlys.
But i made it through. All those months i had been dreading the 17th May. And it was finally there. I strangely didnt feel so bad as i was expecting an apocolyps or something lol. I was kept busy i baked all day and had a cheeky glass of wine. Was so pleases it had been a nice day.
And today i feel strange. Almost more at peace within myself than i have been these past 6 months. I feel like iv survived a storm and now all it calm within me. And only now i feel i can let go a little more and move on emotionally. Im glad i did something for my angel baby. And i'll never forget my Angel baby. Only now its not so hard.
God Bless all of you sweet and brave ladies. It truly does get easier. Finally after such a long time of grief and sorrow.
I am proud of you and the way you handled your EDD and how you have come out the other side feeling more positive! 
