I know how you feel. I keep doing this to myself. It's like I'm torturing myself. It kills me when I see scan pics of babies that are the same age that my baby would be. I'm really going to try to not go on there, it just hurts too much.
I feel like the only reminder of my bubs are the bruises on my hands from the anaesthetic from my eprc. Think I'll go and look at my memory box, I might get some sleep then ...