mixed emotions

[franky]

I had some news tonight, my best friend told me she was pg, due in oct. we are going on holiday together with our husbands in june and we were joking before about how big I would be now she is going to be the one with the bump.

I kinda knew when i had my mc that she was pg but she didnt say anything so i shouldnt have been surprised. i felt so bad when she told me coz i cried but expressed how happy i was for her! I dont know how i am going to cope seeing her get bigger when it should have been me! this sounds totally selfish and i am such a cow for saying it but she has a child already, surely it should be my turn? I hate myself for thinking like that but I am just so low

 

[rachjim98]

Oh sweetie it's only natural to feel this way. Please dont feel bad for being upset. I know the holiday will be hard. I am not sure if you guys are going to wait or try again right away. If so maybe by June you will have some wonderful news to share and celebrate on the holiday..

Wishing you all the best

Sorry for you loss

 

[mazza2003]

I totally hear what you are saying and I am sorry for your loss. I have been 98% fine since I had an ectopic. I havent cried and have been positive and pragmatic, even when OH was breaking his heart and talking about " the wee baby". HOWEVER.... this week I am insanely jealous of pregnant people.
I think the reality that we would have been announcing being 12 weeks is hitting me. I feel worse now than I did when it all happened.
I cant imagine how hard it would be if a close friend was pg, and the holiday aspect must make it harder.
I want to take your pain and wish I could say something to make it better.
Chin up lovey and it will be your turn soon! XXXXX

 

[todteach]

Sending you big . Take care hun xox

 

[Aidedhoney]

Big hugs to you, how your feeling is totally normal

xxxx

 

[jen35]

I completely understand where you're at and it sucks! I'm back to work tomorrow after a mc last week, thing is my boss is 12wks pregnant and I would have been only one week behind her. I'm dreading it because the sadness is simmering away under the surface but I don't want her to feel uncomfortable about talking about her pregnancy.

I went for a check up this morning and was sat in a room full of pregnant women, i thought i'd be ok but it was too much.

People say it will hurt less over time and I hope that is true for both of us...if you are trying again I wish you the best of luck hon.

Your friend probably knows the holiday will be tough for you so it might help to talk to her about it at the right time.

and positive thoughts for you xx