Carlinator
Cautiously expecting #2
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Hi all.
I never thought I'd be where I am now...wondering about infertility at 29. I just had a miscarriage 9/12....which was my 2nd confirmed miscarriage but I suspect actually my third. It would be my 2nd early loss - I had a chemical in June/July...I didn't want to believe it because it was only one positive test that "disappeared" the next day...but I saw it happen with this confirmed one, and had 2 positive tests and my breasts were so swollen, I just knew. My first miscarriage was 12/2013, and it was a missed miscarriage - I was much further along with that one, I believe about 11 weeks.
My dr (at least I met a new, great great obgyn that is going to start thoroughly trying for infertility in January if I have another mc or am not pregnant yet - weve been trying since February or March) said I probably wouldn't ovulate for 6 weeks, but I think I did. I am so scared because my breasts are so tender and swollen again, and honestly, I don't know what's going to happen. I want to be hopeful but I can't. I'm already bracing for the worst. I'm already going over the wort things that could be wrong in my head, and that we will never conceive a sticky baby. But I think I am pregnant and I'm scared to test. On one hand it would be helpful to know even if I have another early loss, just to be able to confirm it medically.
But in the other hand, I am just to a point where I can't handle much more. I quit coming here in august because I was just super disappointed and sad, I wanted it to be my month so bad after the chemical/early mc in July and just got fed up when everyone around me seemed to get BFPs. I was just done, I couldn't handle.
Then my tooth broke. And has gotten progressively worse. I'm finally trying to see about getting it pulled, but couldn't get X-rays because of the
Possibility of pregnancy, so I'm on antibiotics to ride it out til I'm cleared by my dr one way or the other. Can't really eat because food gets stuck in t and irritates it.
My brakes went out while driving and my daughter in the car with me, but thank god I was right down the st from my house (had just left) and was able to miraculously get it back to the driveway and put in the parking brake minutes before the line fully broke while my neighbor was checking it out. I realize I am lucky as hell that it happened like that. But man, so stressful!
I have had so many dr appointments between the mc and my tooth and getting sick in between, tht I am even falling behind in mostly online classes! I cannot do that!!! To top it all off, oh and I decided to get married in case I do get preggers (I wanna fit my dress lol) ...guess who can't make it to the wedding from my side? Probably not a single f*** person. My "best friend" was supposed to come but now she is pretending to have health problems way more serious than they probably are...I only think this because I know she has exaggerated it before when she doesn't feel like doing somehing. But, she has the money ad energy to party and drink everyday, and go to all the local music festivals, even for 3 or 4 days at a time. But no, too sick and too broke to come to my wedding. Others have had similar excuses- an yeah, it's on Hirt notice and I live states away...but these are "friends" I've had for 10 or more years tha swore they would t miss this.
My dad, lives closer but still several hours away, and he is older and one of his dogs has been having seizures, and his wife did leave him in june...but he made it very clear to me that "he couldn't bear to board his dogs!" And my last email, pleading to at least consider so
Something like care.com for pet sitters or bring the dogs with him?
Completely ignored. Unanswered. Discarded.
I want to f*** cry, I'm trying so hard to be understanding of these people , but I am honestly so very hurt and I wish I could tell them what pain I'm in and how much it really really means but I feel like I can't. I feel so ignored and uncared for. This is my only weddig and I'm 29! It's not like I'm marrying early, or having a 2nd or 3rd wedding, and it shouldn't matter if I did! At least my neighbors I've known for a year or less are wantin to help and give us a nice lakeside venue where one neighbors keeps his boat, for free.
I am stressed to the max and don't know what to do
I never thought I'd be where I am now...wondering about infertility at 29. I just had a miscarriage 9/12....which was my 2nd confirmed miscarriage but I suspect actually my third. It would be my 2nd early loss - I had a chemical in June/July...I didn't want to believe it because it was only one positive test that "disappeared" the next day...but I saw it happen with this confirmed one, and had 2 positive tests and my breasts were so swollen, I just knew. My first miscarriage was 12/2013, and it was a missed miscarriage - I was much further along with that one, I believe about 11 weeks.
My dr (at least I met a new, great great obgyn that is going to start thoroughly trying for infertility in January if I have another mc or am not pregnant yet - weve been trying since February or March) said I probably wouldn't ovulate for 6 weeks, but I think I did. I am so scared because my breasts are so tender and swollen again, and honestly, I don't know what's going to happen. I want to be hopeful but I can't. I'm already bracing for the worst. I'm already going over the wort things that could be wrong in my head, and that we will never conceive a sticky baby. But I think I am pregnant and I'm scared to test. On one hand it would be helpful to know even if I have another early loss, just to be able to confirm it medically.
But in the other hand, I am just to a point where I can't handle much more. I quit coming here in august because I was just super disappointed and sad, I wanted it to be my month so bad after the chemical/early mc in July and just got fed up when everyone around me seemed to get BFPs. I was just done, I couldn't handle.
Then my tooth broke. And has gotten progressively worse. I'm finally trying to see about getting it pulled, but couldn't get X-rays because of the
Possibility of pregnancy, so I'm on antibiotics to ride it out til I'm cleared by my dr one way or the other. Can't really eat because food gets stuck in t and irritates it.
My brakes went out while driving and my daughter in the car with me, but thank god I was right down the st from my house (had just left) and was able to miraculously get it back to the driveway and put in the parking brake minutes before the line fully broke while my neighbor was checking it out. I realize I am lucky as hell that it happened like that. But man, so stressful!
I have had so many dr appointments between the mc and my tooth and getting sick in between, tht I am even falling behind in mostly online classes! I cannot do that!!! To top it all off, oh and I decided to get married in case I do get preggers (I wanna fit my dress lol) ...guess who can't make it to the wedding from my side? Probably not a single f*** person. My "best friend" was supposed to come but now she is pretending to have health problems way more serious than they probably are...I only think this because I know she has exaggerated it before when she doesn't feel like doing somehing. But, she has the money ad energy to party and drink everyday, and go to all the local music festivals, even for 3 or 4 days at a time. But no, too sick and too broke to come to my wedding. Others have had similar excuses- an yeah, it's on Hirt notice and I live states away...but these are "friends" I've had for 10 or more years tha swore they would t miss this.
My dad, lives closer but still several hours away, and he is older and one of his dogs has been having seizures, and his wife did leave him in june...but he made it very clear to me that "he couldn't bear to board his dogs!" And my last email, pleading to at least consider so
Something like care.com for pet sitters or bring the dogs with him?
Completely ignored. Unanswered. Discarded.
I want to f*** cry, I'm trying so hard to be understanding of these people , but I am honestly so very hurt and I wish I could tell them what pain I'm in and how much it really really means but I feel like I can't. I feel so ignored and uncared for. This is my only weddig and I'm 29! It's not like I'm marrying early, or having a 2nd or 3rd wedding, and it shouldn't matter if I did! At least my neighbors I've known for a year or less are wantin to help and give us a nice lakeside venue where one neighbors keeps his boat, for free.
I am stressed to the max and don't know what to do
Hopefully we will get our rainbows soon. I know loads of people who have had multiple losses and have gone on to have a healthy baby. We just have to be patient. I'm 28 and really want our first baby.
Just joining this thread but I will keep my fingers crossed for you.
